#androla

Andrew Harrington died the day his wife died. 

It was never meant to end like this, just when everything was about to begin, when they were going to build a family their happiness was taken away from them. When the blood started dripping on the floor he stayed strong, he believed they would survive, he never gave hope on her once, even when she looked at him, with her big blue orbs filled with tears, even when her eyes shut, he still had hope, but it wasn’t enough.  Losing the person you love changes you. It leaves a hole in your heart which can’t ever be replaced. You try to move on, try to forget about them, yet it doesn’t work. When the person you love dies,  the best parts of you die and giving up, giving up and letting go of life seems like the best option, but Andrew had someone else to live for, his daughter, their daughter.  The day Nicola died, she left him alone in the world with a baby girl.  Acceptance. Accepting that the one you love has gone forever is probably the hardest task someone has to live through. Andrew couldn’t accept she was dead for months, and even now, despite five years having passed, he still couldn’t fully grasp that she was just a memory now.  He lived for his daughter now, he lived in a world where his daughter was his world and nothing else mattered. He needed her by his side, he needed her to laugh at him and tell him the baby wasn’t broken. He broke down in tears the first time she got ill, he tried to stop himself crying when she did. Nicola’s voice would keep him going, make him stronger, her whispering  ‘It’s going to be okay.’ was what helped him survive.  Now, twenty years later, he stood with their daughter over her over her grave, delivering sunflowers to their dead mother and lover. Their baby always knew about Nicola, he told her stories about her, told her how much she loved her and how proud she would’ve been of her. Now, looking at her grave, a tear rolling down his face, he smiled, “I’ll see you soon, Nicola. I’ll see you soon my beautiful seeker. I love you.”