Jan 17, 2021
I may be transmasc and hate being seen as feminine but
I'm slowly learning? Not to hate feminine things?
Like. I'd wear some dresses. Or cute skirts.
Not to say those Have To Be Feminine but like traditionally it's considered feminine.
like I'm. Very conflicted and confused as to what would look good on ME?
however. I can finally look at Feminine things and go "this is adorable. they look nice" and not wince and be like "society is gonna force me to wear that and I hate that" which is an overreaction...
I guess I'm just getting more comfortable with the flow of things. :] Again I'd much rather be andro or masculine but. some feminine touch isn't a horrible thing and I have to stop treating it like it is.
#not to mention#i think#having a girlfriend? helps?#like having someone#who desires to be and is pretty feminine#so i can truly appreciate it?#considering my last relationship that lasted a while was with#a trans man#who was hypermasculine and hated everything feminine#and i was still considered cis durint those times#so it was very#'you act this way and i act THIS way otherwise it'll make me upset'#which is not fully his fault#he just came to terms with being trans and was going through the frustrations so I don't blame him fully for that#but yea#going from#a relationship with men#to finally dating a girl (two girls technically cuz i dated ksp who I also had a wonderful time with)#and appreicating it fully...#idk#im rambling in the tags#ollie speaks#topic: my nonbinary shit
