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∙ ∙ ∙ looking back on 2016!! — curiosity killed the cat, @ahyngkm !! ♡

14: Where did most of your money go?  

food! aside from food, i went to japan twice this year. the first trip was all mileage but the second trip was definitely my own money. it’s not much though since those are money i’ve saved on. aside from that, there’s make up, clothes, and .... more make up and clothes  ㅋㅋㅋ

16: What song will always remind you of 2016? 

this is such an emo song but... i listened alot to jessie ware’s say you love me. there were times when i was extremely down and i found myself listening to this song. which probably wasn’t a very wise idea because i got even more down but nonetheless, this song is a song i found myself listening to alot this year!    

18: What do you wish you’d done more of? 

make more friends? ㅠㅠ not that i don’t have them or that i’m complaining about the set of friends i have right now. just that i think i’ve been so camped out in the training room (i probably will continue to be busy though) that i’ve been limited as to who i get to see. hopefully, i get closer to the ones i have right and meet new people too.  

20: How did you spend Christmas? 

∙ ∙ ∙ the way i said i love you!! — curiosity killed the cat, @ahyngkm !! ♡

there are certain situations in which jinny sometimes question herself. money isn’t a problem when she’s spending impulsively on people she care dearly about though the holes in her credit card balance certainly shows not too long afterward. out of all the spontaneous trips she’s ever spent a dime on so far though, taiwan has got to be the most expensive one of all. the fact that she didn’t choose to spend her mileage points and the expenses on food and accommodations— yet everything blends into something worthwhile when she’s sitting first row to girl’s day concert, waving her banners and screaming on top of her lungs. she doesn’t usually attend such large crowds all alone just because she’s so terrified of being swallowed by the ocean of fans and to say that it isn’t at least intimidating would be a lie because at this very moment, there’s only one thing running through her mind: i wish there was someone with me who i could scream with. that isn’t exactly the case right now; the one who she’s usually screaming with is suddenly the object she’s screaming for. 

hazy eyes search through the foggy stage, slender digits cramping around the edges of her sign. and finally, loud music blares through the system, fans cheering on top of their lungs— jinny included. she searches frantically for a sign of the four idols yet none; until finally, a familiar smiling face breaks through the widescreen and everyone is yelling, ahyoung’s name a chant brushing against their lips. jinny’s eyes are glued and she’s mesmerized, watching with awe. she doesn’t think she’s ever expressed her adoration for the female idol this way--- in fact, she doesn’t recall plenty of times where she expressed it at all.