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Been in this school many times, I learn a lot here. I started coming here since 2013 and I love the old red (red-orangey) bricks that make up almost the whole school. It's an old place, I saw many Filipino movies were shot in this place. I would have wanted to shoot, but at this time, I am still unable to summon my old camera loving self--- probably not anymore. I am happy and content with my life right now, but sadness creeps in as well. I am living and feeling what life is about, I am still a dreamer, but I see the world in a different perspective. 

In order to be happy, one must also learn to embrace sorrows, no? 

My home office desk is a bit cluttered, but it is clean now and more ideas are brewing. 

Portrait of a Little  Lady

So, finally I am settled. I know it had been long overdue, I finally was able to shoot some tutorial videos on my hobby that I will be posting soon. 

Moving to a different house was a pain, but at least our new place is well lit, spacious, and the scenery is superb. This is the right place when someone needs to refuel one's creativity.

Keep smiling--- God will work wonders in your life everyday. 

It was April 2, 2005 when Pope John Paul II went home to heaven. I could still remember how sad I was that I was not able to see him in my lifetime. He was the Pope while I was growing up, and his witnessing for Christ have become so relevant to me that I wanted so much to know the God he loves so much. 

Now, April 19, 2014, a day before my birthday, I was so blessed to finally get the chance to get close to his relics. These includes his skullcap (notice how the mother Mary is at the backgournd even though I took a shot of the skullcap without realizing she was there--- Pope John Paul II is not Pope John Paul II without the blessed mother), his rosary, pieces of his chasuble, cassock, a piece of cloth from his deathbed, and some strands of his hair. There was also the chair he sat on when he came to the Philippines in 1981. And a cloth with a drop of his blood.  

Easter Sunday is my birthday, the mother of all celebrations in the Catholic church, and despite my tragedy at the start of this year, I am experiencing a renewal of hope, through the sacrifice of our Lord for me in His resurrection.

One of my surprises is the Totus Tour of the relics of Pope John Paul II.

Flashback: 2005. On April 20, 2005 Philippine time, (April 19, 2005 in Vatican) the "Habemus Papam" was finally announced after a long period of waiting. On my birthday, a new pope was declared. :) an equally awesome Pope he turned out to be. I do miss Pope John Paul II, but his successor was a follower of his, and has beatified him in a short span of time. 

I woke up today and the sudden realization that you are permanently gone now, hit me. My heart felt the intense pain, tears come streaming down my cheeks, I didn't know I am still capable of crying. There are days when I thought I moved on--- but it is impossible. All I can do is hug you in the past, phantoms of our happy days--- it will be living in my heart. I can't believe I have to live without a second chance of doing things right.

2 months since you went away. I can't reconcile everything, I felt like I am living in a parallel world. I wish you're happy, dear brother. I wish I could hug you and tell you I am proud and I love you---- this mean little sister learned her lesson.

Please be happy.