#amture

There’s many basic things in this world that scares us such as storms, bugs, the dark, clowns, loneliness.. the list can go on and on but the scariest thing to me- words. 

Now, I know if someone is reading this (probably not) you’re probably shaking your head or confused on why this might be a bigger fear than death or poverty. Well, from my experience, people are unpredictable in their acts of vulnerability that will make them have a random outburst of such nonsense that will eat you upside for days.

I’m sure we’ve all heard of the saying “sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me” but when does that saying ever come to play? When does that saying ever become true because frankly, I’m waiting for it. It’s like every word that spilled out of her mouth, every word is permanently carved into my brain for a never ending play back and there’s nothing I can do to turn the tape off.

I never thought I would be the person haunted by the words of a fellow friend- someone I used to count on and adore until one day all that changed. The friendliness and the jokes and the secrets faded out of our lives and reached the point of awkward glaces and turned heads.