#ammyjournal

Hahaha. Ha. One, two, three, four...blood crawls along the floor. Five, six, seven, eight, what's so bad about a snake? Ahahaha.

Haha.

Why am I writing like that? I don't know, haha, I'm just a little...off, aren't I? Never was...the brightest, was I? After all, I left the MASTER AHAHAHAHAHAHA what the hell did I just write I'm not like this at all no

help

why would i need help when i have been shown the light

the fox tried to hurt me today

she's lucky she's still alive with what i did to her

I don't know how long it's been since we've had a peaceful day but today is just another upsetting day. Life.

Let's see...Jack is dead but for some reason I don't think for long, apparently Da Ji isn't as bad as I thought but she wants it kept quiet, and...what else...

I'm crying. I'm so happy...I...I can't put it to words. But if I had to...I'm feeling unimaginable ecstasy...a euphoric rhythm of love and life. A miracle performed before my eyes...and I still don't know how it was done.

But that's not important because...I'm married. I'm so...I...

Last night was amazing. It was...I'm not even sure if I should write it down, it's not very...well, they should figure it out, right? Mmm..maybe not.

I'll just say it now. We had sex. And it was amazing.

I spoke not once until she was done telling me everything. She was busy trying to intimidate us.

DAJI: aww, Look. bItcHes oNe aNd two. How woNderfULLy sUIcIdaL.

DAJI: yoU sHoULd back off, yoU IdIots. wHy? becaUse...

She then took a more shadowy form. Her voice became near demonic and her eyes glowed red.

DAJI: I KILLED HIM AND HE IS NEVER COMING BACK. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THAT, (an extreme profanity that has been removed for decency)!?! HE'S GONE!

DAJI: forever.

DAJI: EVERYONE HAS SOMEONE ON TOP, YOU KNOW. SOMEONE THEY LISTEN TO! ISN'T THAT RIGHT, LUCIFER? LOOK AT YOU. AT LEAST THEY KEPT MY GENDER. EVERYONE THINKS YOU'RE A MAN. THAT'S YOUR SPOT IN HISTORY! A MAN WHEN YOU ARE A WOMAN. JUST HOW STUPID WERE YOU, ANYWAY? YOU HAD ONE JOB! OBSERVE. YOU HAD TO TURN, DIDN'T YOU? YOU'RE DEAD FOR THAT. HEEEEE'S COMIIIIINNNNNG FOR YOOOOOOUUUUU!

DAJI: bUt HoNestLy, amaterasU! my favoUrIte part was tHe tears. How LoNG dId yoU cry for aNyway? days? oH No, far too sHort! yoU cUt yoUr GrIef IN HaLf to kILL me! How tHoUGHtfUL. I Love it.

DAJI: sHame I dIdN't kILL yoU too! tHat dragoN woULd Have Loved It! to see yoU bLeed oN tHe fLoor. a...oH, I woULd say It may eveN...tUrN me oN? HaHaHaHa. (the previous profanity) yoU, bItcH! HaH. caN't Get It oUt of my Head Now.

DAJI: eIGHt LaUGHING Heads. I'm Not reaLLy tryING to affect yoU, by tHe way. No, yoU caN't HUrt me so easILy.

Daji attempts to walk away. I don't let her. She doesn't walk away ever again. I exorcise her with a holy ritual and she's no longer in her host body, which she doesn't care about because she can just find a new one. Of course, I'm still talking. That worries her. The fear in her eyes is growing and I'm loving every moment. I send her to the Celestial World. Specifically...straight to Nüwa. The goddess that Daji betrayed. I know what she did now. The pain Daji felt was more than anything she had ever given, and the fear she felt when she saw where she was and who was judging her was enough to kill someone.

That was satisfying.

I wonder, just wonder, what Nüwa did to her?

This is my last adventure, with Lucy at my side.

On the first day, it was dark, so I made light. On the second day, it was dark again. So I kept it dark and said screw it. On the third day, we found her. Daji.

A spectacular death. I know she's resenting her actions now.

What she said was unexpected and changed everything.

"Everyone has someone above them." She was SENT to us. Along with someone else.

I think I'll detail her reveal in my next entry. But it made me feel better. Too bad he's...still gone. Dammit. What was the point, really? Of ending her? Revenge? Justice? It doesn't fix much...she's not going to hurt anyone more.

Lucy, you tried your hardest and I'm sorry you had to do it alone. I cannot stress enough that I'm here for you. We all are. It wasn't your fault and it wasn't Aerith's. It was that Huli Jing and no one else's.

I sang to him.

He's gone now, here at least. He got a...last reprise, I guess. One last chance for him to talk to me. So he slowly died up in the celestial world...so he could say his words to me. He wanted me to just end him then and spare him the rest of his pain. I couldn't do it. So we sang together.

You are my sunshine...my only sunshine...you make me happy...when skies are grey...

You'll never know, dear...how much I love you.

So please don't take...my sunshine...away...

The other night dear...as I lay sleeping...I dreamed I held you in my arms...

When I awoke dear...I was mistaken.

And I held. My head. And cried.

You were my sunshine, my only sunshine, you made me happy, when skies were grey. You'll never know dear, how much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

PLEASE don't take...my sunshine...away.

I think I'm never going to find someone like him again. I hope I don't. That way I don't have to remember this pain. Knowing that there is no chance of him coming back like last time. He can't come back.

He was my sunshine and I wish I had him back. I want nothing more than to see him again. That stupid girl. She killed him. Just like last time. Nothing can help her now. Nothing can stop me from ending Da Ji's little game. No one does this to Amaterasu. And she must have cursed Cait because I can't cure him. It's personal.

He's sort of sore about the ring, apparently. I would be too, thinking about it. Spend a week on something like that, using materials that are very rare, trying to make it as unique as possible...and I threw it into the vastness of the ocean without a moment's hesitation.

I can see why that would be annoying. But I think it's alright now. I think. We talked, we found out what was wrong, and we're going to fix it. I know we are.

It's alright now. I love him still. It's unnatural. He just makes people want to be near him, and it's just because of how he is. I'm getting that ring for him and I'm fixing this, and no one can stop me.

Well, I'm not feeling very happy today. That inconsiderate bastard can しんじまえ.

He doesn't even feel sorry. And now Kuyo is in this relationship with Aerith and Sue is still with Lyl, and I'm all alone. And I still look like a monster, and I still don't know why. I hate it. I hate so many things right now.

I just want everything back to normal.

Oh, hell. No I don't. Normal was boring. And there was too much sadness. I'm going to confront him about it tonight. I already know that I'm not going to like it.