I miss her. She's my everything and it's been too long apart. I'm so scared. We do good one day and the next...I always feel like we are growing apart. Then we come back to each other and she still give me butterflies, still makes me blush, still makes my heart beat fast like we are new to love. I just want her by my side. I wake up missing her. Go to bed missing her. I hate missing her so much it fucking hurts. I don't want to tell her that I do terrible without her. But I do. She holds my head high. She puts the smile on my face that barely anyone gets to see. She makes my days better. I just want my parents to love her. I wanted them to see that I'm so happy with the one girl I am insanely fucking madly in love with. I wish our lives were closer. I wish I could hold her every night. You tell me I will be fine without you for a while. Truth is, no I'm never fine. I bawl the moment you leave like a little whiney baby. I fucking hate life without you.
