#ambitiousfriends

So this weekend, someone who has known me for almost a decade turned to me and said:

"You know, the only criticism I have to admit about your friends is that they just don't seem ambitious enough"

RUDE. I mean, my neck snapped back so quick to defend my inner circle.

My friends ARE ambitious. 

Well. 

Actually, I don't know.

It waxes and wanes between unrealistic high hopes and being overly-content with being spoiled. 

I figure, your closest friends don't have to be some "perfect" influence, right? I sure as hell am not for them.

But, spending a lot of time with someone HAS to start to influence SOMETHING ... isn't that inevitable?

But ambition used to be something I had. I feel like it's dwindled away over time along with the fullness of my hair...

OK BUT SERIOUSLY.

Are my friends holding me back? I really thought hard about it all weekend. Sure, I spend a lot of time with them. But, am I just blaming someone else for my own laziness?

Or are we all just enabling each other's laziness?

Ok, so that answers nothing. It's a chicken or the egg thing. Whose fault is it? 

Maybe I should make new, ambitious friends.

Oh wait.

#nonewfriends #deathtosmalltalk

I mean, seriously? I should be able to control by now how much I allow people to influence me right?

I think the only conclusion I can really draw is that whether or not they are ambitious I just need to suck it up and stop making excuses.