I wanna do something rly self indulgent and make the #amberrosechallenge about something entirely different. Growing up surrounded by horrifyingly airbrushed/bad photoshop jobs on women has made me despise the marks and lines and spots and flakes and freckles and scars and folds and textures in flesh that I have all over the parts of my body that I was taught to hate, hide, BUT for some reason make pristine and perfect and pretty for the male gaze. I grew up watching porn and had no one teach me what my body even was or what it could mean to me. I remember never wanting to have sex or be intimate in lit areas because of the acne & ingrown hair & bug bite scars on my lower body. I still am always literally talking out loud to my partner about how I want to bomb all the marks on my ass, my first instinct is to always decline going to the beach and deprive myself of beautiful nurturing experiences because I'm like "how am I supposed to flaunt these damaged discolored cheeks!!!" Overtime I've learned to walk forward with those old fearful ideas and I'm always in the process of unlearning everything I was taught about my body. Idk bro I just like... hate the patriarchy and rape culture and hate everything so as a protest pls look at my scarred bumpy body that I truly love. Literally the first (and really only) thing I noticed about that nude photo of Amber Rose, is that half her body was blurred and airbrushed and chopped away digitally. Shit is so tired and makes me mad because I just wanna go back in time and tell my younger self "YOU ARE WORTH IT YOU BEAUTIFUL BITCH!!" Also I just love picking at my skin??? How do people NOT pick at their skin idk
