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I kissed her today. Everything’s so new, she makes my life a little brighter. 09/12/17

The moment I hugged her the first time, I felt everything I had lacked my whole life. It’s a connection I cannot explain. 08/12/17

I’m back after what feels like ages. But I can’t handle it anymore. I graduated a few days ago and I did great, got lots of awards and everyone congratulated me. Today I did also great on an important exam. And I was congratulated again. But it just feels like the pressure is going to kill me. I do things for myself not for what others may think but there’s always those “what if’s” in the back of my head. I’m grateful for everything, don’t get me wrong but I don’t feel alive, haven’t for a while. 02/12/17

This is my third letter in a row. Anyway. I’m lovesick but not the way it was before. I just want to love and be loved again, I want it to work this time, I just haven’t meet the person yet. 

I don’t need you in my life anymore, I don’t need you to feel complete or happy like I used to. Yet I want you there. It’s a scary thought, isn’t it? How you’ll always have a piece of my heart. 

I just got hit by a wave of memories. I miss having friends, I miss the feeling of belonging somewhere.