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Every day intimacy came a little easier. Surina withdrew from her hug with Valcyis but kept a hold of her upper arms, cradling them just behind the elbows.

She hesitated, unsure if this was the right time or place or if she was moving too quickly – but there was never any certainty about those things, no strict schedule to follow. Surina only knew what she wanted. She suspected there wasn't really a wrong time or place so long as she asked.

"Can I kiss you goodbye?" she broached, thumbs giving a nervous swipe of white scales. 

Val's eyes widened, similar to how they did on their picnic, but she blinked it away and nodded quickly. 

Surina's arms fell to grasp her hands and draw her in. Like a tacit, coordinated dance, Val stepped in at the same time to greet her, chests grazing. Surina touched the tips of their noses together, stole a breath, and kissed her. It was light and soft, nothing dramatic – it was all Surina could do, nothing more, nothing less. 

She didn't consider herself much of a kisser, either, but her heart still gave a contented spark when Val returned it, a confirmation that it was the right time and place. She leaned away to meet a beaming Valcyis, bright like morning dew on grass. Surina grinned in return, then embraced her again, almost light-headed. 

so while this all happened i was dating dave/kuwatata and we dont really talk anymore but yanno

so like first of all, me and dave were the most underhand people in the fandom, because we knew people. people who were involved with the really fucking popular people.

so we found out pretty easily that the ~~popular people~~ aren’t too fond of bitter or trav, straight out. teenangst was lended to skully and dipperhugs once and they refused to give it back, saying trav ran it wrong, etc. this is the ONLY time i’ll ever mention this because tbh i was told not to say anything about it. who cares

i also get the vibe they weren’t too fond of tenta, while she may say something else??? sometimes they did things that were really mean to her im not gonna elaborate because thats stuff i’ve kinda said i wouldn’t say anything about considering she’s pretty cool in the fandom and stuff

dipper hugs also sent anon hate to a dave ((i have a fucking picture it was hilarious)) unanon and just wow he’s a fucking asshole i hope electraler fucking dies out.

skully is also an asshole dont even get me started on that shit. ((points above)) and wansura/adori was bad about sicking his rabid fucking fan-girls on people that didn’t agree with him, and then apologizing profusely and acting like he didn’t mean it.

BIG SPOILERS AHEAD FOR U FANDOM FUCKS OUT THERE WHO ARE GONNA FUCKING VAGUEBLOG ABOUT ME WITH MY NAME IN IT:::: strapple holy fucking shit i dont know if you guys know it but hahaha she runs one of the swag blogs with --someone who has been politely asked to be removed-- dont know if she released that but incase you didn’t know. but she can’t fight her own battles and has harrassed one of my friends CONSTANTLY i would like her to back the fuck off and get a fucking life holy shit the girl is crazy ((she also doesnt like trav and made this very clear))

okay so this one time me and dave spent all night talking shit about the fandom ((because we found out some shit about it that we shouldn’t know and i wont disclose)) and then a bunch of popular people jumped on him and he got sent a bunch of anon hate and tried to kill himself. mind you, the fucking onceler fandom. i was up till 3am with jenna after calling his parents having an anxiety attack. i came to school the next day and had to see my counselor because i was convinced i was the shittiest person to exist

continuing on, i felt awful for a good week until we talked again and he informed me of what was going on. but from that point on, i faced the possibility of him doing it again, because jesus christ the anon hate he gets. so i was constantly checking his blog, and it killed me. i couldn’t eat, i started to lose weight, my anxiety was constantly weighing over me every second of the day.

not to mention after skully left the fandom he got the hate, saying he made him. which actually skully never left, is a total elitist asshole who planned the whole fucking thing. but really, over a fucking 15 year old who doesn’t like you. skully needs to get the fuck over himself haha

but yanno after dave pulled the whole deal again it was even worse, so we broke up about a month later. it was an easy break up but some controversy over other stuff has put us on bad terms please dont pry thanks

going on, now my friend tessa is having trouble, with about 3 people in that fandom because they love to gossip and fucking vagueblog about shit and she’s remade her blog because of it holy shit the onceler fandom is really good at making people struggle to get away from it???? wtf

also fucking toppy fuck you dont fucking post about me clearly with my fucking name in the post on your blog if you dont want me to get pissed off. did you even think that over??? frick u man ur being a lil bitch get over yourself and talk to me like a man ((aka act like a human being and ask me to remove the names instead of telling me “to fuck off” and that i’m being a lil bitch))

topgami u a lil bitch i wasn’t gonna put ur fucking url in here for the sake of you but god DAMN LIL BITCH

tessa is a real sweetie, she runs prank-ler, storm-ler, and lurk-ler, and does a damn good job of it. she’s one of the very few okay fans

but really, the majority of the swag/one/spook/bitter (i’m getting sick thinking about them ew) people are dicks and their characters aren’t really that creative they’re just oncelers that they tried to make kinda different they were still oncelers they still make me sick to my stomach when i see them they still make my anxiety spike when i see them

so really tho if you wanna know why i hate that fandom here’s your fucking essay stop asking

I really enjoyed Ironman o3o I UNDERSTAND MORE NOW<3 well.. y'know, nothing apparently major as I already knew that, but I understand things.

Onto my ear business..

rainbow-flavour replied to your post: Ok I’m getting ready to go to the doctor’s then...

I hope they manage to get everything sorted with you soon, stuff going wrong with the ears throws everything off balance D: Get well soon :D!

Aw thank you Nai~ c':  Yeah, it really does throw everything off balance DX it's so disorientating..