#allyourlife

Suena la lluvia por mi ventana, caen las gotas al compas de una canción triste, mientras la tristeza me quema y la soledad me abraza.

Suena una canción triste, una canción que hará que el despedirme sea mas fácil, sus melodías me incitan a dormir para siempre.

Luche tanto, contra mi depresión, pero me sucumbió en el oscuro cuarto de la melancolía, donde las risas son llantos desgarradores, de almas que ya no encuentran la luz.

Mi ansiedad me hace querer buscar formas de huir de forma directa, tal vez un pase directo al cielo, donde allí dejare de sufrir, donde posiblemente seré feliz, aunque cabe la posibilidad que sea condenado eternamente por buscar ser feliz,

Recostado en cama estoy, pensando y pensando, mi mente es una batalla campal de pensamientos que me retumban la mente, solamente mi cuerpo vive por que mi alma murió hace tiempo.

Necesito saber que la vida es tan buena como sugieren, que la vida al final me recompensara por hacer las cosas bien, me recompensara con algo bueno, ya tanta carga para tan pocos años,

Mientras suena una canción triste estoy buscando la forma de despedirme

Estoy buscando una forma de decir, ADIOS...

14. what’s something surprising about you?

i am very bad at understanding people's actual perceptions of me tbh and i also feel like nothing but a walking contradiction a lot of the time so i don't really know what would be truly surprising but um. okay actually i've had more than one person be visibly shocked when i told them that i wasn't really a masochist at all so. apparently that but idk if that would surprise any of you or not lol

17. do you want any tattoos? if so, where, what, and why?

yes i want So many more and i need to buckle down and do some real planning to be honest but for right now my vague ideas are:

plastic vampire fangs on my right hip to match the ones on my left but bloody instead of clean

i know i want a girls and boys tattoo somewhere but i'm really not sure exactly what i want it to be. if i go for a lyric one it'll probably be 'always should be someone you really love'

i've always wanted like one colorful vs one mostly black work sleeve w a few of my favorite critters on each of them i.e. one sleeve w like a peacock and a few diff butterflies and the other w a vampire bat and moth and raven etc. they would be species specific most likely and i have some ideas but i need to actually sit down and plan those out before i do anything with them

almost definitely a vampire girl pinup and probably a guy pinup as well but i haven't decided on whether i'd go matching vampire, kind of fetish/bdsm related, or something else entirely. those would most likely be on my thighs esp if i go kinky with either of them bc then they could be hidden lol