Just realized something...
That I like the idea of love. Part of me wants a relationship and to feel loved by someone, but part of me feels like I'm not ready for it. Like, I feel like I'd get bored. I don't know why. And then my friends will ask why I'm not doing anything to be in a relationship with someone I like and I guess I kinda found that I don't want to initiate the relationship. I want the guy to. I guess I've always felt that way about it. Maybe because that way I would know that it wasn't one-sided. I'm not desperate. I'm not in a hurry. This is what I want people to understand.














