#alltheflaws

Summoning the inner @iskra in me. She is such an inspiration in loving yourself for who you really are. 💕💕💕 #selflove #loveyourself #alltheflaws #loveyourflaws https://www.instagram.com/p/Bog50tYlEfw/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1uc8qdoi51usk

I am clumsy. I drop things, a lot of things. It sucks, you know, any moment now you can let go of something and pay the price for your whole life, it doesn't have to be a material price, it can be something like people not trusting you and that hurts even more than paying a material price.

I take things for granted like they'll come back sooner or later, but they won't. You will never be able to re-live a moment. So, cherish it now before it's gone. Second chances aren't worth waiting for, the first ones are usually those. We were never promise a 'tomorrow' or maybe even 'later'. So, start living your life the way you want it, stop wasting your time on things or people that don't bring out the best of you, because really, you'll regret it. Never do this mistake I've done. Take chances, but never take them for granted.  

See the pattern? I contradict myself. In other words, I'm lost, lost in this place with strangers even stranger than stranger. I seem to see every possibility of failing, as if there were a 99.99% chance of failing. Like nothing ever fell into place, there was always a missing piece. I feel like I'm an outcaste, like no one ever cared, like everything wouldn't be alright at the end. I was really never good to go. Look at me & you see a smiling girl looking for some inspiration in this world, but inside, I screaming the words that might never come out of my mouth. 

You did it once, you can do it again. That quote is both true and false. Just because you did it one single time doesn't mean it's the same now. And when you start believing you can do it, you might just gain a little bit of over-confidence. Small doses aren't as bad. It's when it's on a daily basis. You will never be able to see what's coming your way. But who's blocking you? This post. This post is only to tell you that you need to enjoy life and never let over-confidence or no confidence at all block your way to your dreams, if there's anyone who says there's too much to risk, life is all about taking risks. This posts contradicts itself. 

People say that I'm a great person but the only thing is: I see every single flaw that is me. Probably, nothing will ever change that fact. I might learn how to gain confidence one day, but inside I will always judge myself on the things that won't really matter in the future. But the truth is, I will never forgive myself for feeling this way. It ruined all my chances of feeling good.