#allperfects

All Perfects in Rhythm Heaven Megamix (Flow 94)

Back in 2016 when I was 16 years old, I had Flow 94 and had gotten all Perfects in Rhythm Heaven Megamix on my old Nintendo 3DS. In the Final Remix too, It was fun to always catch the wedding ring perfectly with the timer at 3.00! 😄💍✨

And overall, I was just so happy during those 3 years (2016-2019); after all, I’ve had 6 Adverse Childhood Experiences (the hardships began from as early as 3 years old at least, possibly even younger too) 😢, and 5 more big things that I personally would count as ACEs too, but apparently they are not in the official ACE list for now. And maybe because I was finally happy then, I had many achievements in those years too, both puzzle-wise 🧩 and action-wise ⚔️ (But not maths, lol 😆 I can’t do calculus, etc.)

But after my 6 extremely severe and excruciatingly painful chronic illnesses worsened/started in 2020-2021, all that feels like a distant memory now 😢 Even my airways had gotten so swollen before that even my doctor’s very thin wire-thing (nasopharyngoscope) couldn’t go in at all 🥼 🏥

So now all I do is talk about the past, without being able to prove my skills by doing it itself like I used to do… 😔 I just hope everyone nowadays knows that severe childhood adversity can possibly do so much physically, and even possibly worsen chronic illnesses to the point of devastatingly severe.

With how frequent my oxygen levels tend to be at 88 because of my swollen airways, extreme PMDD-related bloating, or PMDD-related nausea-and-vomiting every day (I seriously only get 1 or 2 days of break from my physically severe PMDD each month), so I worry if the low level might one day affect my brain too… 🧠

The pain every day is akin to torture, and I’m not one to throw words about lightly. 😢

At least, I’m glad I even had those 3 happy years of my entire Hell-ish life. It was nice. 🥲