you gotta be fucking kidding honestly
I don't even care what you said, getting all sappy on your blog about me because it's apparently easier than just talking it out whatever (and I'm supposed to let that go when if I do the same I get basically scolded whatever)
it's idiotic that after I said countless times that you don't have to please me in any way for me to care you still hold that against me for not being a picture perfect toy
I said from the beginning that I was a handful
yes I'm a terrible person and an even worse friend
but I never saw you as lesser than
or someone to be pitied, or taken care of whatever
I saw you as someone who understood
but apparently you can act like a pro
you don't need fucking adderall you need a blow to the head and someone to fix that flawed system ya got going on
because you "didn't get anything in return" but I always put you first, I always told you everything, we texted every day, I held you when you cried and didn't judge you about it and I never judged you for anything you'd apologize for
and you still proved that what ive always been scared of was actually true. you're the one example of the reason i feel like I'll never fit in. this whole ordeal alone is representative of the factors that make me feel like a literal child whenever i try to get close to people my age/older/cooler
all that because I'm neurodivergent and obviously you never bothered to understand
whatever man I hope you get the life you always dreamed of
