#all over

i hate it man. like oh boy i just expressed my opinions about a conflict im LIVING THROUGH! you were not the ones that had to hide in shelters on oct7 and 8. you were not the ones that had to go to 5 different funerals in a week. you were not the ones that had their dad leave to go serve in the army. you were not the ones that didnt have proper school for 3+ years because of this conflict. you were not the ones that were hated and ridiculed online because of your ethnicitym religion, and nationality. to clearify: i have never once wished harm on palestinians and you can quote me on that. the only people i hate in this conflict are hamas and the leaders that divide and hate and kill. both sides have awful leaders (tfiii on bibi) all in all, if i cant be myself on that server then i dont want to be there anyways. but it pains me so so bad to know even in silly fandom i cant participate any longer. it was my escape from this g-dforsaken place. from this country filed with worry and hate and problems. i love israel but i hate it. you probably get this feeling no matter what country you live it. proud of the culture, hate the leaders and the growing extremists. you dont know this conflict like i do, so i really dont understand why you're doing all this. but your choice. is it because of the un? the org that hired a non-lawer laywer that's so antisemitic detailing it would go past the word limit? these are the people that dont even know the definition of zionism. and to be frank, im hurt. ive done more for the palestinian people then you will probably ever do, and it's not for bragging point. it's because i actually live through this conflict and i want it to end. i want peace, and I want bomb shelters to become dusty and obsolete. im not treating this like fricking football teams. if you can't handle a zionist you can't handle jews. zionsim is from zion, yerushalaim (jerusalem) all it is is connection to our NATIVE homeland. you can and should critize the israeli government, but why take it out on a 17 yo girl that frankly, has the most lukewarm takes on the subject? im not an extremist and im certainly no radical. poking holes in the theory of genocide does not mean no war crimes were commited. not all war crimes are genocides. the reason i poke holes at that theory is because the UN's WHOLE argument hinges on intent. all of it. they don't have the numbers, or the other things like sterilization or kidnapping and converting of children. tldr: got kicked out of a discord server for being a zionist (as most jews are) and for expressing basic fucking connection to my home land. and im pissed, yeah i am. im not gonna go after anyone that's fucking mean. but im also not gonna roll over and say oh yeah ok thats fine whatever. at the end of the day i still got kicked out of a silly fandom server for holding a very jewish opnion.