A couple of questions
Heyho! I’m pretty new in this so I’m really sorry if my questions are stupid or if there is a private chat and I’m just not able to find it ^^‘
In the long time of trying to find out what I am, I now somehow found out about the Pangender Spectrum and am still very confused about many things, so maybe would you like to help me?
How does it feel to be pangender? What’s the difference to genderfluid?
How does this terms like Panflux und Panfluid feel like?
Is there any self question or help for me to tell if I’m part of the Pangender Spectrum or not?
Really looking forward to your answer! Sry if any of those are stupid but you’re the only person I found by searching for people who know about pangender so I just had to ask you…
Sincerely yours,
Keith
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Reply by Pangendering:
Hello~ I’m so sorry for taking so long to reply @_@ It’s totally okay to ask these questions! I will do my best to help with what I can! How does it feel to be pangender? Being pangender can feel like you are a huge amount of diverse genders, to the point that you can’t even specify all of them, or you feel like you are all genders that are available to you, being an entire gender spectrum. It could feel like an “infinite organized chaos”, but even if it feels “chaotic”, it’s possible and real. Being pangender can feel like having a very strong connection to the way most gender experiences are described. It’s experiencing: all genders related to female and/or male, all genders outside female/male, all genders that are a mix or in-between female/male, all genders that are a balance of other genders and genders that you can’t figure out what they are (unknown genders). (Obs: only genders that are possible in your culture and life experience).
Here are some personal narratives: “Regarding my identities, I’m a transgender (or transexual) non-binary person whose gender is pangender and/or panflux. My pronouns are they/them and he/him. I’m also pansexual and panromantic (I can feel sexual/romatic attraction to people regardless of gender). How do I dress? Well, I dress in many different styles, but most of the times, I look like a hobbit~ I would like to talk about this gender spectrum called pangender and panflux (which I belong to). I have always been sure that I wasn’t a girl nor a boy (despite my family imposing a binary gender onto me) and I was really confused regarding my gender and didn’t know how to call myself, because I didn’t know there were other people who were like me. I’ve always thought that there were only two genders and that these genders were defined by the genitals and body parts. Because of this ideology, I believed in my family and thought that my intersex body was actually deformed, so I would be a deformed version of the gender I was assigned to be. Only after I got in touch with feminism, transgender people and intersex people, that I’ve realized how untrue and damaging this ideology is. I had discovered myself as transgender, non-binary and intersex. Pansexual I already knew I was, because I had discovered it first. I knew I was non-binary, but I didn’t know how to express my gender into words, I didn’t know how to call my gender, how to call myself and I did wanted to find out how. I talked to many non-binary and genderqueer people from Brazil and other countries and learned their genders and identities. I told them how my gender was and they gave me a lot of emotional support and advices. I was still searching for a way to describe myself until I found the term “pangender”. It was instant. From that moment on, I knew that was a word that could describe my gender. The prefix “pan” meant to me the enormous spectrum of genders that I have. The plural genders I have are not necessarily the same genders that other non-binary people have, because each person has a different life experience, a different way to feel their gender(s). Yes, it’s chaotic, but it’s how my gender is. Since I flow from pangender to agender*, I’m also genderflux* and because of that, I’m panflux (pangender + genderflux). I’m also many other genders that are not yet named. For example, I named one of these unknown genders as Efêmere (it is a very subtle gender that lasts only some minutes). To me, being pangender or panflux feels kind of like being inside an “universe”, full of infinite “stars” and other “celestial bodies”. There is so much going on and I do understand it, but I don’t know how to express it. Having infinite genders doesn’t automatically mean that I’m appropriating genders that are not from my culture and neither that I’m appropriating genders that are exclusive of neurodivergent people. Since I’m part of the latin american culture, I can identify as travesti*, but I can’t identify with other culturally specific genders such as bissu, calabai, calalai, alyha, muxe, etc. I’m fully aware of that and I do not appropriate of these genders.” “Sometimes gender is like a bunch of paints all blended together on a palette and you can’t really tell where one color begins and another ends, but it’s still beautiful.” “There are various aspects to my identity that pangender sums up rather nicely. I’m somewhat genderfluid myself though I’m more genderqueer, sort of a little bit of both, and they fit together in interesting ways to form my gender identity. I define mine (my gender identity) as pangender, because I feel like it describes feeling masculine, feminine, androgynous and third gender all at once. I guess in sum total I feel like four gray areas of gender, all the genders that are masculine, feminine, neutral and none of them. I fluctuate somewhat between these areas and their intensity so that’s why I’m not sure if I’m also genderfluid as well as genderqueer, but it seems to fit. But either way I’m not strictly male or female and I don’t strictly identify with man or woman as categories. I am female aligned at least part of the time so I do belong in female-centered spaces. However I am not exclusively female. I’m also not bi/tri gender or purely a third gender or androgynous. I have many types of genders.”
“I feel like I have a whole bunch of genders rolled into 1 but I don’t know how many or what they always are. Sometimes it feels infinite and other times it changes.”
What’s the difference to genderfluid? “Pangender is a gender for people who experience all genders available to them (i say available because a non-native american couldn’t be two spirit) genderfluid is a gender for people who’s gender changes. not all genderfluid experience all genders (example me, i dont experience being a boy or a girl). it really comes down to personal preference. someone could be pangender and genderfluid but only chose to use one.” (https://enbiesheartenbies.tumblr.com). How do terms like Panflux and Panfluid feel like? Being panflux or panfluid can be like feeling you are all genders it’s possible for you to be, or that you identify as the entire gender spectrum available to you, but sometimes you don’t feel that experience in totality, while, other times, you have a feeling of being no gender at all. It’s to flow like: pangender <-> demipangender <-> agender. I would say that if you’re more comfortable with panflux, then you are panflux, and if you are more comfortable with panfluid, then you are panfluid. When chosing between these two, it’s more like a personal preference, I believe.
Is there any self question or help for me to tell if I’m part of the Pangender Spectrum or not? Do you feel like not only you experience gender, but you experience it in a huge amount and diversity? Do you feel like you can’t possibly explain all your genders? Do you feel like you can’t possibly count how many genders you experience? Do you feel like your gender identity is infinite? Do you feel like you are an entire gender spectrum? Do you feel like you have the maximum amount of genders possible to you? Do you feel like you have a lot of genders, but at the same time, you don’t? Do you feel like sometimes you are all possible genders, but other times you are less genders or even agender? Do you feel like you are half of every gender possible to you? Do you feel a strong connection to the way most gender experiences are described? Do you feel a strong connection to narratives written by people in the Pangender Spectrum? Do you feel like polygender could maybe describe you too? Do you feel like asking: “could I be pangender?”
