#al updates

Oddly enough ever since I’ve gotten around on maneuvering around with being extremely fatigue all the time, I’ve realised how much more energetic I had years ago.. I wonder why but my body is really slowing down lately and I find it pathetic that I can't actually muster enough energy to stand sometimes without feeling like I'm about to fall back... Somehow I kind of wished I was a little bit more energetic but really am I able to muster enough energy to? I hope I can heal bc as much as I want to die, in reality, I am quite scare of dying... I hope it doesn't happen...

Ok now I feel bad for being melancholic at 12 and talk like I'm on my deathbed when in reality, I'm in my bed, trying to sleep so I can wake up early for my tuition class tomorrow. Plus I'm like 17 so it's p funny to be thinking such things because I haven't lived for THAT LONG.

Also just looking at that post alone made me feel p sad bc it seems like everyone has drifted off to either different things or websites(like me). It feels a little sad to realise alot of the people I know (who reblogged from that post alone) have either deactivated their blog, had become inactive or simply moved to a different platform/blog (at least they stated it). I kind of feel bad for feeling all sad and lonely at like 12am but I kind of just feel like I'm really far away from everyone and have no one to talk to because I don't share that many interests with others anymore. However, I don't blame anyone for doing such things because it's only logical to lose interest and initiative to talk to someone who share no interests with. I tend to do the same but sometimes it makes me wonder how I came to get such friends and lose them along the way. It's an interesting thing to think about in some way but also a little sad and melancholic.

Yk occasionally I get notifications on notes from any of my old posts and I didn't know my audio post for Momo's VA singing is still circulating Thanks for reminding me how disappointed I am in this insult which is known as MCA