It wasn’t hard to see that people were upset, she had never explained the whole story. Well who wanted to hear it, but hearing Vanthoris stopping everyone even after the harpy had basically called her a child.  Adamaris let out a slow breath, she was not happy and it showed with her ears wilting. It wasn’t that she didn’t want explain things,  every time she tried, everyone had left or it wasn’t the right time.

Though now looking at two new friends,  she soon looked towards Tal, and Zyn.  Offering no tears only a smile, Adamaris stood there as she looked at the bench as she took a deep breath, slowly breathing each time as she lifted her hand over her chest. Pressing her hands over her heart as she closed her eyes, " I can't.. "  She said softly " In truth, I started seeing Vanthoris, when just started to come out from my home.  It was right after I came out of a horrible marriage, and losing a baby due to sickness." she said softly before exhaling. " I was so scared when I first met him, but he somehow attracted me.. I never would have thought. We were still fuck buddies, and that's how it started." she said softly as she leaned her head back.  " Back there, there was no promise of attachment, no strings, no matter what." She gave a small laugh as she lifted her hands up to press her face cupping her mouth before exhaling.  " No one.. knew this, I knew where he came from. "  She would laugh out softly.  " He was a playboy, and a big one at the same time.  " she took a another breath as she closed her eyes.

“He’s right, you have no right to judge, any of the actions we make. I mope because I want him there.” she said laughing before closing her eyes. “I am fiercely protective, and possessive of him. I know who he is, and it’s like I made my mistakes on this.”  She stood there as she rested her hand over her stomach,  Looking down at her stomach, “ He is right, he thought I was taking medicine, I made a mistake.” she said looking at the wagon now. Her hand reached out to gently set on the ledge. “ I told you this tail is tangled, it’s more of me messing everything up. With all of my worry, my anxiety, I’ve seen and know his true colors, I know who he is.” She said this as she looked up at the sky her eyes closed as she gave a small whimper.  “No one ever asked why I felt this way, because here I am trying to hold onto something and trying to move forward.”

“Now I wanted a chance to say this, Just more in private.  I don’t like talking about these things. Do I tend to overreact, Yes I do. No instead I get told for acting like I am ok.. When inside I am a mess.”  She looked at the two now giving a sad smile, “He is an amazing lover, and my friend, the person I trust with every little bit I am, I love him, I never want to lose him. But I do not want him to think that he sticks around for my sake.“ She moved to set her hand on her stomach as she slowly exhaled,  and moved to start walking away.  Looking rather calm and collected at this point before offering a smile, “The next time you judge him for how he acts. Know there is more of a reason, if he is crass, it’s because of something different. “  She laughed a little afterwards before shaking her head.  “ He toned down his flirting, he knew I didn’t like it.”   Sighing out softly. “ I flipped my shit on him for a previous agreed on agreement, he could sleep with men or women, as long as there were no pregnancies.” Taking a moment to just breathe and keep herself composed in a calm manner.  “I only took one other lover other than him during a drunken night.”

“He held his word. I’m the one who didn’t like sharing, and I am the one that assumed shit.  There was a reason I asked you NOT to assume you knew what was going on. There was more to this tail, more of me assuming and driving the wedge between us. I love him, and I wanted to change him.” Adamaris lifted her hands to her head and rubbed her temples a little as she was flustered, it was not hard to miss. 

“He tried to to change -his- ways. He tried to meet me! Half way, but he wasn’t being honest to himself.”  She looked at them now taking a deep breath and exhaling.  “ We were driving each other insane. And when he broke it off. I was upset.” she said softly before closing her eyes. “ I acted stupid, I tried to act happy while I was going through that, it got so bad where I locked myself in my house..he basically scolded me for shutting him, and everyone out. That he was trying to be there for me and the child. It was wrong of me to do that.” she would look at the sky closing her eyes a little. “ I always want him around, he’s a light in this chaos.. And my rock, I can continue to go to him and hug him tightly.”