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Thanks for the ask!

2. Stimming head canons?

Well, we know from canon that he flaps his hands when upset. I like that one (not that he’s upset, but that he flaps his hands). I also headcanon that he rocks and bangs his head (which is also canon from 5x05), and chews/bites.

7. what calms them down?

Deep pressure, time alone, stimming

11. how do they prefer to communicate? are they non verbal/have periods of being non verbal? do they use sign language? do they talk? do they prefer text, etc? 

I really like the idea of Fitz using British Sign Language to communicate when he’s nonverbal, or he’s struggling with words.

My lab partner did spill acid on me once! It was really weak acid (like .1M of something not-that-powerful) but I’ve never gotten a chemical burn. I think the worst thing that’s happened to me in a lab was dropping a beaker because the tongs weren’t working correctly.

ooh, okay *rubs hands together

Wolf in the Henhouse - I mean what an introduction. Scary. Hot (lol poor Jemma, although I do prefer Bobbi blonde). And on their side! I especially love the hallway march, the little “oh shit here we go” eyeroll, and the super efficient baton-wielding building-jumping hop-into-my-mouth-if-you-want-to-live ass-kickery that followed. That entire sequence was a power move.

The Iliad - this is the ship that she (and Mack and Hartley) were on in the flashbacks in 2x15. Not only are there wicked fight scenes in this ep but we also see a lot of what Bobbi thinks about things and why she acts the way she does, and what she wants for herself and the world and Shield, which ties into the present-day plot of that ep with Skye. I also appreciated the relationship we saw between her and Mack.

Ward’s Torture & Attempted Escape - Bobbi is a very principled fighter and even though that has consequences she is very thoughtful about her decisions and sticks to her guns. This and her strength of character in so many other ways were really showcased in the end of S2 when Ward and Kara take her hostage and torture her. This also enabled her to show off her skillset not just as a warrior but also as a spy, withstanding interrogation and torture, and she also got a few shots fired at Ward which was fun I’m ngl. Then she broke out, they had another AWESOME and emotional fight scene, and even though she failed it was well done imo.     AND THEN sacrificing herself for Hunter? I originally had this as a separate point because it’s a bit of a separate lesson / I love it for a different reason, but I’m running out of points so hello cheating. Not only is Bobbi taking steps toward emotional vulnerability before this, but she’s not going to let Ward hurt Hunter anyway no matter what her feelings are. Her smarts in trying to get out and then her desperation and sacrifice when she realised that would have to be enough?? HEART STOPPING.

Big Sis Bobbi that’s too many moments put them back- I love bigsis!Bobbi and her with Daisy is one of my favourite iterations, especially when she visits in 2x11 with Cactus Cooler, sugary snacks and magazines. It gave Daisy a boost when she really needed it and I really appreciate that. I very much love other DaisyBobbi scenes eg. the end of 2x15 with Bobbi protecting her, and the fight they get together in S3, but something about the bonding for the sake of bonding in this scene really gets to me.     I also really love Bobbi & Fitz though there was not nearly enough of it imo. I particularly liked that tender little moment when Bobbi brushes something from his face in 3x01. another fave of mine is when Bobbi is exercising and Fitz is talking to her - I feel like they could have done so much more with their shared experiences with disability and recovery-slash-adaptation, but even though they didn’t do as much with it as I hoped in terms of their relationship I’m glad we got what we did. I wish we could’ve had more.     And of course Bobbi and Jemma relating to each other regarding their feelings and complications expressing it. There were so many parallels between Bobbi and Jemma both in terms of their character and potential storyline I’m really sad we didn’t get more! #jemmasimmonsforapprenticemockingbird2k18

“Experience” - now this wasn’t a moment so much as a whole arc, regarding Bobbi’s recovery and re-entry into the field. I talk about it a little here too because I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH. I loved seeing her interact with May and be challenged, and in turn challenge herself, and then the culmination of it in that scene with the pool is just awesome! An action and suspense-packed scene with a strong emotional victory that was just SO satisfying, and the expression on Bobbi’s face and determined physicality is just amazing. The line? maybe a little cheesy ngl. but the meaning behind it (and not to mention the impressive fight sequences throughout the episode beforehand)? Amazing.

honourable mentions to basically every Bobbi & May fight, because what a team, and then I’d better stop before I somehow cover every single moment Bobbi was even on screen and thus defeat the purpose of this whole thing

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Hi, thanks for the prompt! ♞:   Caring for each other while ill

Jemma woke to the sound of vomiting; a sound which had her instantly alert and on her feet within seconds. She hurried to the ensuite bathroom where she found her partner hunched over the toilet bowl. 

Jemma found a clean washcloth, wet it, and then moved to sit on the edge of the tub and hold back Daisy’s hair. When Daisy had finished, Jemma gently wiped her face with the washcloth and felt her forehead with her wrist.

“You’re burning up,” Jemma commented as she helped Daisy stand. “Let’s get you back to bed and I’ll bring you ibuprofen and ginger ale.”

Once the medication had been taken and some of the ginger ale sipped, Jemma and Daisy cuddled together on the bed. “I’m gonna get you sick,” Daisy muttered as she rested her head on Jemma’s shoulder.

“Probably,” Jemma agreed, “but that’s okay. It’s what partners do: share everything, germs included.”

😃 oooh, this’ll be interesting to narrow down…

1. Obviously number one is going to be his quote from 2x11: “You’re just different now. You’re just different now, and there’s nothing wrong with that.” I just love this quote so much!!!!! It’s probably my favorite scene/quote of the show. Just, the importance of Fitz having been through something that made him different, and him accepting that, and then helping others accept that - it’s just so powerful and perfect!!! And it especially means a lot to me as I’ve gone on my own journey of accepting my differences and self-diagnosing as autistic.

2. From 1x07, when he tells Ward: “I am every bit the SHIELD agent that you are.” It’s just so good!!!!! Fitz (who didn’t even pass his field assessment!!!) has been assigned a field mission, and he’s held his own, and he’s even gotten them out of trouble, and he’s disabled the machine and now it’s time to go, but there’s no extraction team, so Ward tries to get him to leave, but Fitz refuses. He’s a SHIELD agent, and there’s meaning behind that.

3. From 2x03, when he confronts Ward: “They’re all gone after Donnie, and I should be there with them, but I can’t be. Because of what you did to me, I’m damaged!” Ugh, it’s so painful, but so good!!! Poor Fitz has been dealing with so much ableism from others and internalized ableism and he really hasn’t been able to deal with it all, and now he has the chance to confront the person that caused the brain injury, and he comes out with this. And then we get to see him go from “I’m damaged” to “There’s nothing wrong with that” and that’s why I love this so much.

4. From 5x07: “I do push-ups now. Double digits.” He’s so proud, and the line made me laugh a lot, and I would be the same way, bragging about my double digit push-ups if I could do any.

5. From 3x17: “Who needs space? Because I’ve got something magnificent right here. A picture of space.” Another line that really made me laugh. Iain’s comedic timing was perfect.

AN ~ this is definitely more on the hurt/comfort side than the fluff (oops) but I hope you like it. it does have a happy ending, I promise!

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“Are you ready?” Jemma asked, a clinical but cheerful smile on her face as she looked down at Bobbi, who lay prone on a padded chiropractic bench. Bobbi consciously and labouriously unpeeled her arms from in front of her chest, digging her nails into the sides of the bench instead as she mentally prepared herself.

“Yes,” she muttered.

Jemma let her smile drop a little. She could see the burning humiliation, shame, and frustration behind Bobbi’s eyes: even tears started to glisten in them, as Jemma took too long to look away. There was a moment of intense vulnerability, where both acknowledged that they could see what Bobbi had been trying to hide for so long –

And then it was over, almost, just the whisper of it hanging in the air as they both looked away, stepped back from the cliff’s edge, and took shelter behind the wall they could pretend still stood between them.

“Have you been doing your exercises?” Jemma asked, as she focused her attention on Bobbi’s knee. She expected Bobbi to maybe laugh a little, and make some quip about how her girlfriend would never let her forget or shirk responsibility. But Bobbi stayed silent, so she tried again.

“Can you touch your toes yet?” Jemma asked, lifting Bobbi’s knee and folding it in toward her chest. This one, she really didn’t know the answer to. Or how much it mattered, really. But Bobbi seemed unwilling to disclose either way. Then again, Jemma figured, this exercise probably hurt, so maybe she was just trying to keep the pain out of her voice.

She waited until she was easing the pressure on this leg, to ask another question.

“Have you been weight-bearing this week?”

Again, Bobbi was silent for some time. Jemma took a deep breath, and bit her tongue a little. She’d always had a temptation to fill awkward silences but it was only poisoning the air now. It was better to let things sit. So sit they did, in silence that trembled and shrieked and hung over their heads like a guillotine, and that only truly fell silent when it came time for Bobbi to sit up and prepare to leave.

Jemma handed her a bottle of water and she hung her head. Jemma’s hand lingered by her knee, and though she knew there was no simple answer so fantastical as kissing it better, she wished for a shorter, less painful solution to Bobbi’s pain. And to the pain in her own heart, for what she felt like she was inflicting.

For a long moment they stood like that, until Jemma, with a soft shaking voice, suggested:

“Perhaps I could find you another physician?”

And Bobbi interrupted at last:

“I’m just scared.”

Jemma looked up, into Bobbi’s tearful eyes, and felt her breath catch as their imaginary wall disappeared once again. She laid her hands over where Bobbi’s were twisting anxiously at the bottle, and felt them still.

“Scared of what?”

Bobbi shook her head.

“Everything?” she guessed. “Scared of pain. Scared of walking. Scared I’m gonna get up out of this stupid chair and fall flat on my face. Scared of… losing my job.”

Jemma frowned. “Bobbi…”

“…I’m scared – “ Bobbi choked – “I guess I’m scared I’ll never get back to how I was. I mean, God, Jemma, I used to be able to do backflips across a room. I could kick a SEAL’s ass in stilettos. Now I can barely even point my toes.”

“Well, you’ve only been walking for a few weeks,” Jemma pointed out, then thought back over it and rephrased. “What I mean is – recovery takes time. Be patient with yourself.”

Bobbi snorted. “Hello Pot, this is Kettle.”

Jemma had to smile at that. They did make quite the pair. Nevertheless, she could not let Bobbi wallow – even if it was with a humourous edge – so as she went to fetch Bobbi’s crutches, her mind dredged ideas. Perhaps a proper massage in the comfort of their own bedroom, so that their physical intimacy was not relegated to the med bay only. Perhaps a movie night with Fitz, who might understand some of the frustrations Bobbi was experiencing. Perhaps –

“Multiple stable state.”

The words slipped out of her mouth before she realised why she had said them, but once she heard them, it started to make sense.

“What?” Bobbi prompted.

“In biology – actually, in social science and psychology too; it’s in everything really – there’s this idea. Multiple stable state equilibrium. It means that with any given environment, there’s likely to be several different conditions that it might tend toward, rather than what we previously thought, which was that there was a right way and a wrong way to, well, be an ecosystem. The theory goes that, say, if there’s particularly high rainfall one year, or the introduction of a new species, an ecosystem might adapt to absorb that and develop a ‘new normal.’ It wouldn’t entirely become a new ecosystem, just a different version of the one before. A new stable state. That could be what you have to do. It’s what Fitz did. Ah, I can’t believe I didn’t think of this earlier!”

“Wait, are you saying everything happens for a reason?” Bobbi screwed up her nose.

“No!” Jemma assured her. “I’m just saying… I’m saying, sometimes we get shunted from our path in life – we get lost, or the path disappears, or what have you - and the path we find our way back to might not be the same one we left, but that doesn’t mean we stop going anywhere. Does that make sense?”

Bobbi looked down at her knee, and flexed it, and winced. It didn’t seem like she was going anywhere any time soon. But Jemma wasn’t quite ready to give up.

“Look at you,” she pointed out. “When you were a biochemist, you were happy with that right? And then something happened, and you diverted into Ops. Quite a different life, but a good one, right? And then Shield fell, and Hydra happened, and this whole mess, and we’ve still come out floating. I’m just saying that our lives aren’t always what we expect, that’s all. You are a smart and capable woman, knee or no knee, and I know you can bring good to the world no matter what. I’m sorry I can’t do anything to help you walk faster – and don’t look at me for backflip training, whatever you do – but I’m going to be here for you. No matter what your future holds. Okay?”