vent...ig.
i know these don't do well aka nobody cares but...i don't...actually care..? i just wanna...talk about it.
i HATE affection. kind of?? it makes me like feel gross, or weird or something? idk. its…weird. like yess i love you and you're deserving of love and attention! oh…you're giving me love and attention? uh..thanks? what do i do with this?? do you want this back?? haha...hah... uhm...
like yes i want you to hug me and give me head pats but like....ew don't actually do that?? no??? you're not supposed to actually show me love and affection? you're not supposed to actually..enjoy hanging out with me?? you're not supposed to get close to me. what's even the point if i'm just gonna push you away and hurt you anyway? you aren't supposed to give ME hugs and headpats and hold my hand, that's my job! i'm the one giving the affection, im supposed to be the one giving YOU love and affection, don't give me the love i want?? don't give me the hugs or headpats or hold hands with me??
i mean this all platonically, btw.
