I walked 12 miles today through towns, along dual carriageways and a brief stint past garlic-smelling fields ... angry and annoyed the entire time that I may as well have been walking the Osmotherley-Kildale route as planned. I’m frustrated that I gave up so easily, never acknowledging how resilient I usually am and that I could’ve carried on for at least the last bit and I wouldn’t now be feeling so trapped and weak. It meant I couldn’t actually enjoy where I was, yet stupidly I’d given up on the trail partly for the basis that I MAY not enjoy it. I should’ve risked it because I’d put so much effort into planning it, but instead I spent more time planning other things that were nowhere near as exciting or challenging. One more day to basically waste - what a horrible way to feel. ••• #afeelingofhelplessness #hindsight #whydidigiveup #strongerthanithought #eaglescliffe #yarm #cleveland #teesdaleway #teesdale #teesside #grassyfield #crops
