So much for closure, I lost composure. winter x fem reader
author needs to really lock in and study.
author's note: btw this is a very messy drabble and it barely makes sense but i was rotting in bed thinking about winter again so....(also yes im obsessed with im the drama winter #slutfordaddy) but love you all and enjoy reading!! πβπ»
Contents: winter x f!reader, author's attempt at angst, dw make up kissing (yesssirr i hate angst #cant survive it) Racer!winter, she gets hurt, street racing, fights, blood, suggestive at the end, reader is for sure a freako, winter is kinda cute, minjeong is actually a loser for her gf (hence the choice of song), avoidance, miscommunication, minjeong doesnt know how to put thoughts into words, kind of crack pls deal with me.
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The ticking of the clock on the wall sounded louder than usual, your heart booming in your chest. Winter had told you to come over for dinner, and here you are at 11:56 pm, still waiting for her at her house. You sighed and slammed your head on the dinner table. Of course, of course she was not there. You knew about Winter's abnormal whims and fancies, albeit a bit hot (okay very hot) but it was crazy dangerous!!! And you know, you get it. She finds the thrill in it, likes to pick fights with the people there too...but i think she still hasn't registered that now she also has someone at her house sweating their butt off praying that she comes back in one piece. It hasn't registered in Winter's mind that now she had someone who cared about her, cared about her quite dearly.
The sound of keys rattling finally came at 12:23 am.
She walked in, her steps disoriented, her hair messy, and.....blood all over her white tank top and jacket, correction your favourite jacket that she took from you a month back.
No words came out of both of your mouths as you stood their woth your arms crossed in front of her and all she could do was stare into your eyesβfor a secondβher eyes widen with realisation and go back to the same face. It was the same face she had whenever she lost a race. She removed her shoes and didnt say anything, just walked and sat on the dining table like nothing happened, opened the takeout box and started eating.
It made sense why you screamed at her first, you were scared. You hated the whenever she got into a fight, the people she raced with were dangerousβlike literally at anything point they could pull out a gun on her. And her fights literally start because of such a stupid reasonβshe lost the race, she cant handle it, blah blah blah blah, SOMETIMES YOU FELT LIKE SHE WAS NO BETTER THAN A MAN!! It was so irritating how easily those people could get on her nerves and how easily her ego got hurt. And you literally cried more than her whenever you tended to her wounds. It was that bad.
"What I do while racing is none of your business."
Her voice came out harsher than she wanted it to, louder than she had expected, and DEFINETLY not the right choice of words.
Those words obviously hurting you cause what the hell you were her girlfriend???
But that just came out because she was stressed and tired, of course she did not mean any of that!!! Oh but my poor baby kept on stumbling on her words trying to say something in her defence because you being hurt = her mind in overdrive.
Tears start to form in your eyes but your'e too petty to cry in front of her so stomp and go to her room, locking it, and finally sliding down against it so you can cry.
"I'm sorry okay?! I swear I didn't mean any of it! Please jagiya, open the door-"
She tried in a her small panic-y voice while banging the door.
A curt and cranky reply came back
"Shut up. Your banging and nonsense is hurting ears."
(Gosh you are so hard to deal with)
okay minjeong was crashing out now.
"IT WAS SUCH A SMALL FIGHT WHY ARE YOU MAKING SUCH A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT?"
(sigh....her and her anger issues can't that she has no upper hand in this now can they?)
The door slowly creaked openβand lo and beholdβit was you with swollen and red eyes, still sniffling, and face full and full of anger...
"Not a big deal? Not a big deal huh?..." You slowly back her up until her back reached the wall.
oh fuck. she just realised how much she messed up. Again.
"IM YOUR FUCKING GIRLFRIEND AND YOU JUST TOLD ME THAT WHAT MY GIRLFRIEND DOES IN HER FREE TIME IS NOT MY BUSINESS!"
You exclaimed out with probably all the breath in your lungs.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. nonononono.
Tears start to well up in her eyes, oh god she hates seeing you heart broken gosh she hates seein you crying...
"Baby I'm so sorry, please don't hate me i really dont know what I'm saying at this point, please don't be upset with me I'm sorry i promise I'll make up for this-"
She tries to bring her hand to your face so that she can cup it but you swat them away before they can even come close.
"....baby...don't cry so much..please don't be mad you know I'm bad with words right..just let me hold you oka- OW?!"
You hit her head before she can finish, well obviously not hard enough to hurt her, but yeah for what its worth!!!
You don't reply, instead you start to shower her with kitten blows instead. Trying to dodge you, she makes the both of you stumble into the hallway.
She kept on letting out little 'ow's with each blow and at this point you weren't even hitting her rather moving your hands in the air, all the while quite literally screeching
"WHATIFYOUACTUALLYGOTHURTREALLYBADORGOTKILLEDBYTHOSEPEOPLEARESOSCARYYOUCANTKEEPDOINGTHISIHATEYOUIHATEYOUSOFUCKINGMUCHFORDOINGTHISYOUKNOWHOWSCAREDIGETWHENYOUCOMEBACKCOVEREDINCUTSANDBRUISESPLEASEICANTLIVEWITHOUTYOUDONTYOUGETIT?-"
"okay okay okay NOW STOP IT!"
she yells back and pushes you against a wall, roughly putting your hands above your head to calm you down. (harder dada i can take it π sorry im totally ruining the mood rn)
You both breathe heavily and you slowly trail your eyes up from her shoulder to her eyes, both of them still glistening with tears.
"Calm down okay?! I want you to stop!"
She slowly leans her forehead down on yours, one hand holding both of your wrists, and the other starts to rub your side up and down from your waist till your hips.
"I love you so much........and I'm sorry okay?"
The hand on hip trails up till your face and she cups it, switching her motion between rubbing your cheek or running her fingers through your hair.
"I didn't mean any of that, youre the most important person in my life."
"I don't want you to ever feel like you don't matter to me or that i wanna keep any secrets from you. It's my fault that i framed my words like that. I'm sorry. Again."
She drops your wrists and let them fall on her shoulder, now cupping your face with both of your hands like youre something precious.
"W-what if y-you got hurt.... o-or something worse?...what would i do if i lost you today?"
You croaked out, following a little sniffle.
"Hey...why are you thinking like that love? I'm your strong pup arent i? If you can call me that then i dont think you need to worry about me that much."
She giggles with that stupidly cute smile of hers.
You also let a laugh out, in disbelief that she actually called herself that (she absolutely loves hates it when you call her a puppy), and tilt your head back against the wall.
She slowly trails kisses down your jawline till the dip of your neck, then bringing her face up and kissing you properly. You both sigh into the kissing and pull each other even closer if thats possible.
After a while, you both break the kiss and without saying anything you guide her to the couch. The atmosphere being strikingly different than what it was before and way more calm.
Once she's sat, you help her out of of the jacket and you kneel on the ground in front of her; hold her chin in between your index and thumb and start to examine her face, like really look at her. You slowly start to notice the multiple cuts and and blood clots on her, feeling all the more guilty and shameful that you ignored the fact that she was hurt over your tantrums.
"Fuck....I'm so horrible, just because i was mad at you i didnt notice how hurt you were." you say with a pout and tears welling up once again.
"You're not horrible, it's understandable.." She whispers softly.
"Are you hurt anywhere else??" You ask while tugging on the hem of the tank top now.
"No....well at least i hope not, you'd better check though.." She starts of with a laugh but that soon merges into a cough as she raises her arms up so you can remove her tank top.
Once the tank top was off, you threw it on the floor and bite your lip as you look at her toned stomach, lightly shaking your head as you try to stay on track and not get distracted by....well.....her.
Slowly, you trace a finger down her body.
"So theres a bruise here, here, and here." You spot them around her upper torso.
"Aaand, there is a pretty big cut here.....how did that happen?"
You ask in a half-joking and half-serious tone, tracing the big scar on her lower abdomen.
"A while back.....got hurt badly but didn't wanna wake you up."
"And you did not decide to tell me later? Its still very fresh."
"Thought you would notice."
That made something in your chest squeeze. Were you really that ignorant towards her?
'Dont apologise, its been long since you've seen me without a shirt."
she says with a smirk looking down at you all smug.
well that starts to stir something up....
"Yeah....its been long. Too long."
"Too long." She repeats and before it escalates you remember the task at hand and clear your throat while getting up.
"Let me go get medicine.."
Once youre back n your original position, you put some antiseptic on a piece of cotton and take a deep breath. Gently, you start to rub her cuts.
She instantly shuts her eyes and throws her head back, gripping the backrest of the couch, her hair falling all on it and breath getting heavy and she lets out a pained moan.
you'd be sick to say what you were thinking, yet at the same time, you'd be lying if you say you didn't.
OKAY MAYBE THAT TURNED YOU ON A LITTLE BIT. You tried and tried, tried your best to keep your composureβrepeating in your head that youre literally treating her wounds, that you really can't make everything about well...that.
But you couldnt help yourself, you couldnt deny that with each small whimper or noise that she let out, something kept getting wetter and wetter.
It's been too long since you've seen her without a shirt.
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author's note: haiiii yalll so did you guys like it? :3
also pls tell me if you think i repeat too many words or phrases, i could really use your help and opinions to improve my writing :D
......plus i also need to start studying now i have 9 assignments to submit next week and im not done with anything π
