#adviseneeded

I somehow feel bad and relief at the same time. I just found out a lot of things most terrible and shocking things about a person I thought were really close to me. But since she didn’t or couldn’t tell me any of this I’m non really shore anymore if we are or ever were so close to each other as I thought. On one side it’s good to know this stuff so I can somehow help her but on the other side I feel horrible because I found out thing she wasn’t ready to tell me and I wasn’t supposed to know... Fuck what have I done... Grateful for any advise