#adsc

i keep thinking of my stupid onesided selfship. when you adore someone so much and you want their conenction with your soul and how you want them to have mutual feelings for you but then they dont really know much of that and only know you like them so they dont pay any mind which makes it seem like they hate you and due to what they have expirienced and how it changes them and how they acxt you start to slowly isolate yourself with these "signs that they hate you". you overthink every single possibility, thought, and intent, but you still have a big fat crush on them. and youre scared to tell. and theyre oblivious. but they dont care really. you two could have a healthy relationship, but the only thing stopping you is the toxic masculinity he has unconsciously put in his behavior and your fear due to your past relationships not really being turned into a serious committed one so you just have this thought that it wont ever be endgame with them. sequa i know you are a part of myself but oh my gosh you are so pathethic it makes me want to cry that you are even a reflection of myself. its okay