#adrian's thoughts

So, it's 1:29 am and I just needed to get my thoughts out. So, I was taking a walk with my dad (ew) and I was complaining, so he goes. "It's not like you have anything to do but sit in front of that computer and watch those idiots."

And it had me thinking.

I hate it when my dad calls Mark, Seán, Felix, Tyler, Ethan, Shane, Mac, any YouTuber an idiot.

Because, they're not idiots. Maybe my dad is wondering why I even watch them.

Because, they're not just..YouTubers. They're not celebrities to me. They're not my idol. I don't worship them.

To me, they're my friends.

Yes, they don't know me.

Yes, we don't talk all the time.

But, it's like I can just sit down and turn on one of their videos and have it for background noise and it's like they're there with me, playing video games and laughing and having fun while I'm drawing, or doing homework, or writing, or doing whatever.

My biggest dream in life (aside from, y'know, going to college and having a life and whatnot) is to meet Mark, and Seán, and Tyler, and Ethan, and Katherine, and Amy, and Signe, and Felix, and Marzia. I want to hug Mark, Seán, Ethan, Tyler, Katherine, Amy, Signe, Felix, and Marzia. But most of all..I want to meet and hug Mark, Seán, and Felix.

I started watching Felix in 2012. And even though my dad told me I wasn't allowed to watch him, I still did. Because I watched his whole Happy Wheel's playthrough and ended up laughing my ass off. I laughed so much with him.

Mark came along later in 2014/2015. I watched a few of his videos, but never really like committed and subscribed, but however, in 2016 (last year), I subscribed, and I don't regret a second of it.

Seán came really soon after. I had watched Felix's Fridays with Pewdiepie's vlogs so I never understood how I managed to completely skip over the video that had his shoutout. The only regret I have, is not finding him sooner.

The only regret I have for Mark is that I never subscribed earlier to him. I wish I had followed them all at the same time.

I've been subscribed to Felix for 5 years and Mark and Seán for less than 1, around 7 months.

They will never be celebrities to me.

They will never be idols to me.

They will never be someone I worship.

They will never be "just YouTubers" to me.

They are my friends.