Random INFP Thing: Melancholic and Wanting to Change the World
Ever since I was young, I have been drawn to some things that I suppose could be construed as sad or melancholic. For instance, I enjoy the overcast skies and somewhat rainy days. They make me want to stay inside and bundle, and write like I am doing here now. With that, there is also the side of being able to display emotions. My best friend in the world once told me that he admired me for my ability to display emotion so well because it was something he couldn't do. Whether it was to a song that touched me or a core value I had. And let's face it, in media INFPs are often portrayed as Emo or Goth or big cry babies. Not that I want to fit the stereotype of a crybaby, but when I have time and think, I think and have internal realizations and sometimes those realizations make me realize how overwhelming things can be. Not my situation perse, but rather I tend to take on the plight of what feels like all humanity. The sadness and sorrow and injustice that goes on. Things seen and unseen. It all seems to fall onto my shoulders and burden me in that moment and it's a bit hard to bear. So instead of talking about it, I bottle it up and cry quietly by myself. I've had feelings like this since I was young and still, to this day I am powerless to stop the things that happen. I know I couldn't stop everything because no one imperfect human can do this, but it weighs on me at times and makes me wish I could. I guess that is something that INFPs try to do too. Try to stop the bad things, so no one else has to endure them. Though we can't do too much by way of fixing things, we do what we can on a small scale. Making those we love to feel loved and cared for. Making a stranger smile, small things. Because in the grand scheme of things we are small. But here I am rambling about how I feel, perhaps someone else feels the same? Some things are hard to put into words. But I try because, maybe, just maybe something somehow will strike a chord and make you feel like you aren't alone, like so many have done for me. And countless times I have been grateful.
I hope all of you have a great day or night wherever you are.
-Best, Admin Luna
