#admin jade talks

I’m sure a lot of readers who may not happen to be content creators are wondering, “Why are the admins/writers of blogs I follow freaking out over “best stuff first” and notes?”

It’s because notes tell us how you feel about our writing. Likes, reblogs, comments, DMs, ALL of those things are the lifeblood of our work. Sure, there is a part of us that writes just to write because it’s fun and we love the characters/shows that we choose to indulge in. 

You know that feeling you get when a writer answers your ask? That flood of “oh yea, I’m so excited to read this!” That’s how most of, if not all of us, feel when we get notes, ESPECIALLY reblogs! Bonus if you have fun tags or add a note saying why you love the post, that you love the post, ANYTHING is like life/muse infused water.

But when we put content out into the world and no one responds or barely does, it stings. It makes us doubt ourselves and our work and wonder why we’re trying SO HARD and putting in so much effort if no one is even going to read it or take that little bit of effort to let us know how they feel about it. 

It’s so discouraging for me, a blogger who is one away from 1800 followers, getting barely 10-30 notes on any given post. Unless my work totally sucks, that just isn’t right. 

That is 1.6% of the people who follow me letting me know what they think of my work. 

So, in cold hard black and white that means 98.4% of my followers either didn’t see the work, didn’t read the work or didn’t like it. 

If you don’t like it, that’s fine, I’m sure that’s going to happen. I don’t even mind if you respectfully tell me so and if you’re feeling extra generous tell me how you think I can improve. 

But the feeling of being ignored or of failing so hard no one wants to even bother telling you, it sucks. 

So yes, notes matter, likes matter, reblogs matter, comments matter, ALL OF IT MATTERS to us as content creators. 

And it’s not just Tumblr where reader/creator interaction is missing. Fanfiction.net, AO3, Wattpad, Deviant Art, I’m sure all of these places are suffering from the same lack of reader/consumer interaction. 

We’re doing this for free (most of us, if you do commissions awesome and I wish you best of luck and it’s great people are willing to pay to get more). 

So please, if you want more content, please think of your words of encouragement, thankfulness and just general opinion as the currency. 

We provide words of imagination, fantasy, fun and indulgence. 

I’m grinning so wide like you have no idea! Maybe the above is why it takes me so damn long to finish pieces but I guess in the long run it’s a good thing because if this is how people feel about them, then that make me happy. 

Thank you so much, seriously. This was so much what I needed to hear because for so many months I’ve felt like words are stuck in a sludge in my brain and it’s so damn hard to get them out in a way that feels coherent or clear. 

I’m always thrilled when readers feel I’ve gotten characters’ tones and voices correct because it’s important to me. Sure, it’s fun to play around with options and just be silly or out there, but overall I want the characters to sound like the people they were literally created to be and so knowing I accomplish that is so gratifying. 

Thank you for taking the time to let me know! 

Hi all. 

I’m sure this is a trend you’re starting to see in the world of fanfic/reader inserts but I too must release myself from the self inflicted responsibility of fulfilling requests and take a break. I have no idea how long I will be gone. 

Truthfully, even with hand picking the asks I wanted to do, I’ve had no motivation and little inspiration even for ideas that sparked my interest. 

I’m tired, mostly because I’m doing a very extreme eating/dieting plan that saps my energy like no other, but I’m also emotionally tired. 

I’m tired of working on things that I receive disproportionate response on for the number of people who follow this blog. If that sounds petty, I’m sorry, but as you’ve seen repeatedly on my blog and others, I am not alone in how I feel. 

Reader / blogger interaction is basically dead. I know there is a host of reasons for it, and I’m not here to try to make you feel bad. But I’m not going to lie and say that isn’t a factor in why so many blogs are dying, deactivating or going silent.

Perhaps, at least with Haikyuu, it’s because more people are reading the manga and thus have either no need or want to continue reading imagines. Maybe the fandom is slowing down because the anime is taking so DAMN LONG to be released. Whatever it is, I’ve felt the effects of it and I just can’t keep pouring the very little reserved energy I have into this any more. 

Also, I’m tired of trying to avoid spoilers. Usually, I don’t care, I’m the first one to read a summary of a movie or video game I’m curious about. But with Haikyuu, I REALLY don’t want to know what’s happened because I want to watch it happen. Overall, the blogs I follow are good about tagging their spoilers posts, but it’s just getting harder and harder to avoid it. 

I’ve come to be friends with a handful of you and I’ll miss our interactions. 

I’m not saying I will never come back, but I’m not setting myself a deadline either. That does mean, though, I’m cancelling a few things and I hope you can forgive me. 

The aesthetic board follower celebration is cancelled. Through attempting to do that, I have discovered I’m terrible at them and they are not fun for me at all. So, I’m very sorry to have gotten you excited for that. 

Also, I’m withdrawing my self-ship commission idea. I didn’t think about the fact my real name would have to be available to accept money (which I’m not comfortable with at the moment) and if I’m this down about writing, I don’t want to add more pressure to myself by taking someone’s money and then not delivering in a timely manner or at all. However, I will complete the ones for the winners of the give away, it’s just going to take me a hella long time so I hope you three don’t mind waiting. Again, apologies. 

I will still be posting with @imagine-knb because I’m part of a team there, so there’s less pressure and for some reason those asks, while part of an almost completely dead fandom, are speaking to me better right now. I don’t get it either but that’s the way it is. 

I’ll be deleting my Yowamushi Pedal blog. I’ve had very little interaction there and it’s just super disheartening. When I come back, maybe I’ll update the blog name to incorporate more animes, we’ll see when the time comes. 

All of the above is spelling out, clearly, that I simply took on too much for myself. I haven’t even decided what I’m going to do about my Bleach blog. Yes, that’s right, I run three separate blogs on my own. 

Also, I feel like my writing is not where I want it to be. I truly appreciate all of you who say you enjoy it or tell me it’s great and it’s not that I disbelieve you, it’s that the current content I’m creating feels flat and boring. I can’t get my words to flow like they did before and it’s frustrating as hell for me which, again, takes the fun out of writing. I feel like I’m repeating myself over and over and I just stare at the screen getting more and more anxious because the words won’t come. I used to sit and work on fanfic stories for hours, forgetting to eat sometimes because my imagination was so overflowing with ideas that just had to get out. 

Maybe I dried up my own well. 

I thought joining the Tumblr community would increase my creativity and for a while it did. But with a severe drop off in follower interaction, it’s becoming harder and harder to feel there’s any point. 

I hope, whenever I come back, that you guys will still be here and enjoy what I put out. But for now, I have to do what’s best for my mental health and actively running this blog is no longer conducive to me being happy. It makes me so, so sad to admit that but it’s something I think I’ve been ignoring for too long. 

Once again, I’m sorry to disappoint but I’m just done letting myself feel guilty over what started out as a hobby and a way to connect with other fans.

So, it’s ta-ta for now. 

Thank you! I think this is one of the few times I’m glad I hurt someone lol. 

But seriously, this is another thing I’m so grateful to hear because, as mentioned before, I’ve been struggling hardcore with my writing these days. It doesn’t flow the way it used to for me and it’s frustrating and makes me doubt myself about whatever I do manage to put out. 

This is a content creator hell. Anyone starting out is going to get so discouraged so fast. It’s hard to tell exactly how much this has affected me personally because I’ve recently had to take a break but coming back will be that much harder when it feels like no one is reading my work.

Oh wait. They WON’T because I’m not a “best stuff blog”.

Until @staff removes this completely unnecessary “feature” please consider turning on NOTIFICATIONS for your favorite blogs. I don’t care if it’s not mine.

All users on this site deserve the same opportunity to been seen and heard and this is killing that outright.

Let Tumblr @staff know if you want this removed permanently or at least switched to an opt in rather than an opt out feature.

Hopefully with enough dissenting opinion they’ll actually listen and do one or the other of the above options.

Not all popular content is good and a lot of exceptionally talented creators, motivators, whoevers are going to miss out on the exposure and interaction Tumblr USED to be known for.

Please, make your voice heard and tell Tumblr to remove this.

Please help other blogs by turning on notifications.

Hey all, I know I just did a post but I wanted to re-iterate separately that I LOVE hearing from you all even if it’s just to chat, so please, send me your favorite animes, characters, why you love them, or anything else you want to chat about. 

I’m surprised it’s hard to find because the anime is SO GOOD and they’ve been out fairly recently. 

Anyway, to answer your question, oh my gosh that is a hard one! I love so many for so many reasons (which is the bane of most of sports animes honestly). 

But I have to say my favorite is Makishima. I just adore him. He’s cool but awkward at the same time and his hair is amazing lol. 

I especially love how he comes a bit more out of his shell to Onoda (another favorite, honestly their friendship makes my heart warm). 

I forgot to mention, I haven’t finished the current season of New Generation because I want to wait until the new season is released next year. I get so spoiled being able to binge watch full seasons but I’m super excited that they’ll be continuing.