#admin felix

So yeah happy 30th anniversary of RENT!!

…oh my god it worked. It worked!

sorry, this is really overwhelming. I have been trying for what? Thirteen resets? and you know sometimes we get close but this is the first time we’ve actually.. done it.

I- I need to go take a nap. Well, I actually don’t because I don’t need to sleep but like- you know… stuff.

Also if anyone asks I am not crying I swear-

-pastry voice.

Apparently, it did work.

Twelve resets, actually, but... yeah. Yeah, I think we might've.... I think we might be able to get out and win this.

Really?

Yeah. Only problem is, we can't- some people are going to die on the way. That's unavoidable.

Well, all the demons will just have to-

Owen, please. You have to stop with that.

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Anyway, Pastry, enjoy your nap, and... thank you for this. Truly.

You know who I'm talking about.

-Root Voice

Then I would be sad. But he wouldn't, because- because he's here. In my house again.

Not for long. I'm leaving soon, but-

Yeah, yeah-

-but I've invited Owen to join me-

-which I won't be doing-

Why?

I told you.

Well, it didn't make sense.

Whatever.

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Hey!! Punching isn't nice!

You aren't nice.

I hate you.

You love me.

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Pastry said you wanted to meet?

I- Yeah, yeah. Yeah, I guess- I guess I did say that, I-

We should go where no one will see us. They all think you're dead or something.

Do you think I'm stupid? Owen, I- I want to be able to trust me, but every single time that's happened, it hasn't ended well.

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Apo, do you remember way back when? I made you a promise, then.

...What? What are you talking about?

I said, and I quote: "Apo, of course I'm not going to hurt you. Never in a million years. I'll do a lot of things, but I will never hurt you. Ever."

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And a lot of things have- have happened, and I- I don't really know who I am right now, or what I believe. Hell, half of me thinks I should lock you up right now- NO! Sorry, sorry- I'm not going to, I'm just- don't leave, please-

...Owen, I don't- I don't know about this...

Apo, please. Please.

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And- and I never told you this- but after I learnt that you, you flipped the lever, I went to Soup about it. And I talked to her. And she told me- she told me- she told me that you'd had my back through thick and thin, and this was just one slip-up. She said you did an awful thing, but- but you're allowed to forgive people. She told me that fear makes people act strangely, and- and she said you were feeling so much fear.

Owen-

Let me finish.

I don't-

P- hhhh. I can't- please.

Are you crying?

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As- let me keep talking. This is important.

Because then when you were in jail, I wrote you that letter, do you remember?

I- yes, Owen, of course I remember-

I don't know- I don't know how that ended up for you, or how you felt about that, but what I do know is that- is that when I walked into- into that prison, barely breathing, and let you out, you-

You helped me. You hadn't seen me in months, and you helped me, and I don't- I don't-

Breathe. You're- Owen, you're going to choke on your tears, you need- you need to sit down-

SHUT UP!

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I'm sorry- I- I need to keep talking, please let me keep talking-

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Th- thank you. And when I got my memories back- I don't know- I-

I want to be better. I was happier when I- I don't know. I still think- your kind- is not to be trusted, and I think you're liars, and thieves, and-

Hhh.

But I'm- I've decided, I'm just going to sit tight, and- and I'm not going to kill you.

What a relief.

I promised. I don't break my promises.

You've hurt me in the past-

Before I made that promise. Past resets, past lives.

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So if I'm to believe... this, then... what's next? Why did we meet? Do you have some grand plan to get us out of here, or-

We met up because I missed you, you idiot.

oh

You're my best friend, I can't- I can't believe I've killed you, so many times, I- I'm sorry. And that'll never be enough, never, but I am. I am so, so sorry.

Apo, I love you, and I miss you, and I'm sorry.

That's- that's all I can offer.

oh.

I love you too.

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What?

You heard me.

But I hurt you. I- I killed you. I stabbed you, and called you vile, and- and I don't-

I used to tell you I loved you, didn't I?

I mean, yes, but-

And I remembered everything then. Owen, I will always forgive you. No matter what. You're my anchor, here, and every time the story resets, those months when we're the best of friends, before I pull the lever- because I have to pull the lever, every time, I have to- that's the time I look forward to. That's- that's my favorite part of life.

F- fuck-

I thought you didn't swear-

Oh my god, you are actually- holy shit, bro, clean up those tears-

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Do you, like, want a hug? Or something?

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It's okay if not-

Sorry, it's just- you're a demon, and I know you're not like the others, but I can't-

Okay, so first off, we're gonna need to work on that racism, hooooly moly. Secondly, you've hugged me plenty of times before, and never contracted whatever deadly demon desease you seem to think you're gonna get. So bring it in.

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OH-

I didn't mean run into me at full pelt, I-

Too bad.

...I missed you.

um.. I think he’s coming to you? I don’t know it wasn’t all that clear, be prepared I guess. But not too prepared because um that would be bad.. not that he probably would run if you tried to kill him because he seems really lax about the whole death thing-

sorry I’m really nervous right now um I’m just gonna sit over here-

-pastry voice

He's-

what?

He's- oh my goodness. When, Pastry Voice? How? I'm right out by the gates to the Maze now, I-

Owen?

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oh my god

What will you do to try and get some company in the maze, other than the voices? To actually see someone?

-Stone Voice

I- Voices, please- I can't answer these questions. I can't do it.

yes i love him of course i love him how could i not he's apo

Like I said, if we meet up, I'll just talk to him. I won't-

I won't do anything else.

Ok the first group is some of the various dragons ive made, these are a favorite of mine which is part of why theres so many.

Then ive got a few samurai hats

A bunch of these paper spiky balls that i have no clue the actual name of. Most of these take 12 or 30 pieces of paper, depending on how many points i want it to have.

A plethora of paper stars

A couple of hearts and a kite i made for a school project

A pair of birds

2 massive ninja stars, theyre a little beat up because they're like 4 years old at this point

A cute little box

And lastly a cool fidgety thing. It spins, but i couldn't really capture that well.

I honestly enjoy the process of making origami things more than the end product most of the time. It gives me something to do with my hands, and is just relaxing to me :D

-Sword Voice

These are really pretty, Sword. I might try to make some of my own... although, it may not be that good at first. Maybe I'll practice for a bit before showing you Voices...

As for what you said about demons, if you knew where apo was would you be willing to tell him that to his face?

If you find him would you truly be able to look him in the eyes and say you think he is nothing but awful and you NEVER considered him your friend? It’s no wonder he probably doesn’t want to see you, with friends like you who needs enemies?

The only thing you are “protecting” is your fragile belief system that is falling apart around you and you know it.

Yours,

Danger Voice.

Why haven't they alre- Danger, they're biding their time! They're- they're waiting to strike, when it's okay, they're-

I'm not-

Don't talk about Apo. You don't get to talk about Apo. I don't- Shut up. Shut up, shut up, shut up.

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