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You never liked when it snowed. It reminded you about him and you tried everything you could not to. You two were just so busy with school and work that you couldn’t even find time to see each other. The both of you began to drift apart and this eventually led to the arguments, the missed calls and the standing-up. You tried to keep the relationship afloat and tried to fix what couldn’t be fixed… He ended it by breaking things off, telling you that he was leaving you for something or someone else. You didn’t care enough to know.

A few years later…

You were going to meet a friend of yours at a nearby cafe for lunch. She told you to try to look nice for your hangout. That meant that she was trying to set you up with someone again.

You sighed at that fact. You went out with whoever she set you up with, but they never worked out after a few dates. No one ever clicked or you didn’t want anyone to.

You were wearing dark blue skinny jeans, a black long-sleeve blouse, brown high heeled boots and a long brown trench coat with a long scarf wrapped around your neck. You made your way inside the cafe. You look around into the sea of faces until you noticed her waving like a mad person and then you noticed another person sitting beside him. You gave a small wave back as you made your way to their table. Your friend stands up and motions her hands to this guy. The guy looked put together. He wore a black turtle neck inside a black leather jacket with ripped jeans and black heeled boots.

“Y/N, this is Jimin.” She says slowly with a huge smile on her face. You looked at him and he smiled. You smiled back. He seems so familiar to you, you just couldn’t pinpoint it.

He offered his hand and you gladly accepted it.

“Y/N. It’s a pleasure to meet you.” You politely said.

“I’ll leave you two then…” She said before waving goodbye. Knowing her though, she was gonna be sitting at another table. You sigh at the thought.

The two of you sat down and started to get to know each other. Jimin was super nice and found out that you two were in a couple of classes back in university. That’s why he seemed so familiar to you. He was Jungkook’s senior in many of his classes and they even did dance club together.

“Whatever happened to Jungkook? I knew you two were like a thing during school.” He asked.

“Oh, uh…” You managed to stutter out, averting eye contact from him.

“I didn’t mean to pry or anything. I’m sorry! I just thought you guys were still in contact or something. Sorry I brought it up.” He said, all flustered.

You waved your hands in front of him and shaking your head. “It’s fine. It was a long time ago. I was just taken back by the question.”

“I won’t bring it up again.” He said.

He didn’t, for the rest of your conversation. It was nice to talk to him, but you had to get out of there… The room felt like it was suffocating you. The more you talked to Jimin, the more you’re reminded of him. You need a breath of fresh air. You looked back into the cafe. You saw that your friend swiftly came to sit with Jimin. You were just gonna leave them there. It looks like they’re having more fun. You started to wander off down the neighbourhood, you just let your feet kind of take you where they wanted to. You quickly texted your friend that you left, not like she didn’t noticed you weren’t in front of the cafe anymore. You noticed that you stopped in front of your old university gates. You scoffed, of course this is where you end up. Your face softened a little bit as you traced your hands over the school’s plaque. Your life changed so much since you graduated. You sorta just stayed off in the side and watched students walk in and out of the campus. It was crazy to think that was you, a couple years ago. You smiled. ‘This was a good trip down memory lane… I guess. It’s time to make my way back to the cafe or maybe not. I’ll let my feet move again.’ You thought. You started to walk back before you heard your name, almost like a whisper. You stopped and you didn’t hear anything. You just thought you were hearing things so, you continued on until they said your name a little louder.

“Y/N?” A voice called from behind you.

You stood still. The voice wasn’t familiar to you, but it made you freeze and your heart race. Taking a deep breath in, you slowly turned around and found the last person you wanted to see; Jungkook.

The both of you stood there, not moving. He looked exactly the same from the last time you saw him, but at the exact same time, he didn’t. His face became sharper and his body looked more broader. His style gotten way better, but still rocking the monochrome colours like always. Wearing a black long trench coat, black straight jeans, black high top converse, white t-shirt inside a red checkered flannel shirt  and topping it off with a black toque. He looked nice, you thought. You felt something wet fall on your cheek. You looked up, the first snowfall. All the memories about him started to flood your mind as you watched the snow start to fall.

You didn’t even notice Jungkook closing the gap between you two.

“I’m sorry…” He whispered.

“Hey Yoongi. Whatcha up to?” You asked as you made your way down the stairs.

“I’m writing a song.” He blankly replied without looking up.

“Oh really? About?” You said, making your way towards him. You went to look over his shoulder and you could only make out some words before you notice Yoongi move a little bit forward.

“... It’s kinda personal.” He said.

“I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to impose.” You said, a little flustered.

“No no, that’s not it… When I’m done with it, do you wanna listen to it?” He said, taking a deep breath out like he was regretting what he was saying.

“Seriously? I would love to.” You excited replied. You were surprised. He doesn’t share his music with you, but now he was willing for you to listen to something he’s making. You guessed you were close with him enough for him to trust you like this.

“Alright then… Let’s get on with practicing?” He said, interrupting your thoughts.

“Right.” You agreed as you stood to the side and began to sing.

Practice went by real fast. It was close to dinner time and it was time to pack up. Yoongi collected all his sheet music and carefully tucked it into his black folder. He slowly covers the piano keys as you close all the spotlights. The both of you make your way up to the entrance and to your lockers. You separate to open your lockers and grab your things. You went to change your shoes into your boots since your boots were a little bit on the dirtier side. You made sure that all your textbooks and notebooks were in your backpack since you were kind of behind on assignments. You put on your jacket and sling on your backpack. You noticed that Yoongi is quietly waiting for you, leaning his body onto the lockers beside yours. He scared you. He’s so quiet that you didn’t even notice he was ready to go already.

“Jeez, you scared me.” You said, putting your hand over your heart. You closed your locker door and started to walk towards the school doors.

He didn’t say anything, but smirk at your remark and followed right beside you. The two of you quietly made your way to the bus stop. You quietly waited for your bus to show up and when it did, you waved goodbye to Yoongi.

“See you tomorrow, Yoongi.” You said with a small smile.

“Take care going home, okay Y/N?” He quietly said.

“Yeah yeah, you too! Don’t be staying up too late to finish that song.” You lastly said before climbing into the bus. You sat down by a window seat and waved goodbye to Yoongi one last time. He just nodded and watched as your bus disappeared behind the city’s building.

“Hey Y/N, do you have a pencil I can borrow?” Your friend asked.

“Oh yeah, just one second.” You replied as you went to look inside your desk. You found your pencil case, but you noticed something else and you took it out along with you. You took out an extra pencil for your friend. Nothing else was important than this mysterious CD. You see that there’s a CD with your name on it.

“What the hell is this?” You said, waving the CD around.

Your friend turns around and replies, “Maybe it’s from somebody. You should go to the music room before practice to listen to it.”

“Hmmm…” You pondered on that thought. It was the only way you could listen to it before going home. You knew you had to listen to it before you went home, the curiosity would kill you.

It was after class and quickly made your way to the music room. You slowly opened the door and noticed was inside.

“Nice.” You whispered. You carefully made your way down the set of stairs and towards the piano. The portable stereo had a CD player, you recalled, you opened the case and opened the CD player. You took out the CD and placed it in the stereo, pressing play anxiously. It started to play… The voice sounded so familiar, but you couldn’t make out who it was until...

Ah. Ah. Ah. Mic test. 1~ 2~ 3~. Good, that’s good. Sounds good.

This is Min Yoongi. Demo. Song title: Untitled

어쩜 사람이 그래 (How can a person be like this?)

세상을 혼자 사는 듯한 착각이 드네 (I start to feel like)

내 곁을 지나는 그대 (I’m the only one living in this world)

내 맘에는 너라는 (You pass by my side)

달콤한 바람이 부네 (A sweet wind called you is blowing in my heart)

넌 딱히 꾸미지 않아도 (Even if you don’t put on makeup)

매력이란 향수를 뿌리겠지 아마도 (You’ll put on your perfume called Attraction)

신은 없다고 믿었었던 나마저도 (I never believed that there was a god)

신을 믿게 만들어 (But now you make me believe)

나에게 여신은 바로 너 (because to me, you’re a goddess)

니가 어리던 말던, (Whether you’re young or old,)

나이가 많던 숨긴 아이가 있던 (whether you have a hidden child)

나는 상관없어 (I don’t care because I love you)

내가 널 사랑하거든 (If I’m with you, anywhere we go is a flower garden)

너와 함께라면 어디든 꽃이 핀 garden (Instead of holding designer bags, you hold my hand)

명품 백을 쥐기보다는 (Instead of jealousy and envy,)

내 손을 잡아주는 (you understand my nature)

질투심과 시기보단됨됨이를 알아주는 (With you, I draw out my future)

그런 너와 함께 우리의 미래를 그려봐 (In between our couple shoes)

우리 커플 신발 사이에 어린이 운동화 (are a pair of baby sneakers)

Your eyes widened.

“What was that?” You questioned the CD as you took it out of the player and place it back into the case.

“It was the song I’ve been working on.” A mysterious voice spoke out in the darkness.

You looked around and found Yoongi standing by the entrance. The spotlight made pretty difficult to see him… You just saw the outline of him.

You couldn’t say anything. You were in just in complete shock.

“I’m not good with words so, I decided to tell you how I feel… In a song.” He quietly replied, making his way down towards you.

“What are you trying to say Yoongi? I need to hear you…” You spoke softly.

There was a moment of silence as Yoongi stood in front of you, taking a deep breath. He spoke the three words you dreamed of hearing.

“I like you.” He said, trying to look at everything but you.

“I like you too.” You replied back, your face turning red after you said it. He finally looks at you and takes hold of your face.

“You don’t know how long I’ve waited to do this…” He said before crashing his lips into yours. You never knew how your first kiss would feel like, but with him, it was memorable and passionate. His lips were dry, but still soft. You pull away with his hands still around your face, just to stare at him. You didn’t know what love felt like until you looked into his eyes. He broke out into his infamous, but rare gummy smile. That’s when you knew: This boy had your heart.

“How was it?” You asked, sitting up and wrapping the blankets around your body.

No response.

“There’s dinner in the fridge if you’re hungry. I’ll just talk to you later after you get some rest.”

No response.

“Alrighty then. Good night Taehyung.” You said, before laying back into bed. You tried your damn hardest to not let Taehyung hear you cry.

You two were constantly angry at each and it was tearing you apart. You tried to understand what Taehyung was feeling, but for the first time, he wasn’t letting you in. He was frustrated, tired and angry all at the same time. He usually talks about his emotions with you, but when he gets stressed like this… It was like he was someone different.

“You know what Taehyung, just leave. If you’re gonna be an ass for the whole time, I don’t want to see your face!” You yelled.

“Whatever, I don’t need you right now.” He barked back as he grabbed his things and left.

You didn’t see or talk to Taehyung for days after that. It never was this bad. You went back into the apartment since you knew that he was leaving tomorrow morning so, you decided to at least pack your favourite shirt on him and some vitamins for the changing weather and the jet lag into his suitcase. He wasn’t home (not a surprise). It was late already and you stopped waiting for him to come home since it always ended up with the two of you fighting. Something clicked and you were done. You started to pack some of your things into a suitcase and asked if one of your friends could pick you up. You didn’t want to be in the apartment, not when you were so conflicted with how things are between the two of you.

You woke up and you were reminded that you weren’t at the apartment. You were at your friend’s house. Your eyes automatically went to look for a clock, it was only seven o’clock… His flight wasn’t until eight. You grabbed for your phone and texted him, ‘Take care.’ At least you wanted to let him know that you were still thinking about him. You saw that he read it, but he didn’t reply.

“I guess, we’re doing this then.” You whispered to yourself.

How did it get this bad?

Taehyung has been trying to get a hold of you. Nothing but voicemails, dial tones and read messages. He knew he screwed up. He took advantage of you. Why did he let it get that bad, so bad that he let the girl he love walk away from him when he needed her the most?

“Mailbox is full.” The automated voice spoke.

“Damn it!” He cursed out and threw his phone onto the couch out of frustration.

He took a deep breath in and breathed out.

“What’s wrong?” His best friend Jimin asked, placing his hand on Taehyung’s shoulder.

“It’s Y/N… She’s not replying to me and I just need to talk to her. I messed up, Jimin.” He said, slumping down into a nearby chair.

Jimin slowly sat down beside him, slinging his arm around Taehyung’s shoulder.

“We’re going home tomorrow, when you see her tomorrow because I know you will, tell her how you feel.” He softly spoke.

“I really hurt her… I don’t know if she will talk to me.” Taehyung said with a sigh.

“Fight for her, if you really believe that. If you really love her and you really want to be with her, fight.” Jimin replied before standing up and leaving Taehyung.

Taehyung let his head hit the wall, looking up into the fluorescent lights. He let his eyelids close and drowned out the noise.

After coming back home from the tour, he didn’t want to go to the dorm. He asked if he could go home… He knew that you wouldn’t be at the apartment, going there now would break his heart a little more. Taehyung knew that it was time to find you. It was time to fight.

You were making your way back home from your nightly walk. You could see the sun setting, changing the sky into beautiful shades of orange, red and yellow. In the distance, you can hear

A big, white fluffball attacked you. You couldn’t see what it was, you could just hear “Soonshim, no! Soonshim!” It knocked you out causing you fall backwards onto the ground. You opened your eyes and looked around you, you were laying on the ground.

“I guess it’s your fault…” You said as you looked down to your feet, the fluffball was a dog. It look so innocent even after it knocked you down. The dog let out a loud bark and you slowly sat up, looking at this dog eye level. It was smiling. You let out a small smile before let the dog smell your hand. The dog started to lick your hand before beginning to pet its’ head.

“Soonshim! Where are you?” A deep voice can be heard in the distance.

The dog barked one more time as you finally got up. You dusted yourself off and looked around. That name. You knew whose dog this was.

You noticed that Soonshim had a leash, you quickly grabbed hold of the leash and tugged a little.

“Hey Soonshim? Should we try to meet your owner halfway?” You asked the fluffball.

Still smiling, the dog barked and started to sprint.

“Oh wait, no!” You yelled out as you began to be pulled by Soonshim.

“Soonshim!” The deep voice called out again, but this time, it was louder. The voice started to get louder and louder until Soonshim halted into a stop.

You were out of breath. How in the world did this dog have so much energy?

“Soonshim! You found me, you’re a good girl.” The deep voice praised the pup, he bent down and ruffled the fur on her head.

“She has a lot… She has a lot of energy today. “ You tried to make out over your quick breaths.

“She does, she was so excited to go for a walk today. After I clipped on her leash, she went running.” He spoke as he straightened himself up. He looked at you and his eyes widened.

“Y/N?” He whispered.

“Taehyung?” You spoke softly as you continued on, “It’s… It’s been awhile.”

“... It has.” He spoke, rubbing the back of his neck.

“I guess Soonshim missed you.” He said, letting out a giggle.

“I guess so. Ummm… You probably want to take her for a walk then, I shouldn’t get in the way.” You quickly spoke.

“I-” He began to speak before you cut him off.

“I’ll see you around, Taehyung.” You gave him a smile before beginning to walk.

Before Taehyung could grab her leash, she began to take off towards you again.

“Y/N! Watch out!” Taehyung warned you, trying to catch up to Soonshim.

She looped around you, causing you to stumble. Taehyung quickly caught up and pulled you by your hand. He pulled a little hard as your body crashes into his.

“Oof.” You said, as your head hits his chest.

“Sorry, I didn’t want you to fall for me again…” He joked.

You looked up and you can see that rectangle smile again. Your heart skipped a beat. You cleared your throat. It was awkward. You haven’t talked to Taehyung since he got home from his schedules abroad.

“Let’s just make sure Soonshim is tightly gripped by you or we might have to look for her the whole night.” You reminded him.

Taehyung slid her leash into his wrist as he intertwined his fingers into yours.

You looked down to your fingers. The familiar butterfly feelings are back. You hated that Taehyung could do something so simple and make you feel like this.

“Y/N, I’m sorry…”  His voice interrupted your thoughts.  

You looked up at him and you pulled him to a stop. You let out a sigh. This was the moment. You needed to tell him everything you were feeling.

“I’m sorry Taehyung, I didn’t mean what I said to you. I was just frustrated and I missed you. I was just feeling so many things and-” You were talking before he cuts you off.

He pulls you into a passionate kiss, you let your arms wrap around his slender neck as his fingers interlock around your waist. As he pulled away, he lets his forehead on yours, looking deeply into your eyes.

“I’ve missed you.” Those words echoed through your head and you couldn’t help smile.

“I love you Taehyung.” You confessed.

That rectangle smile, you never knew how much you missed him until now.

“I love you too.” He whispers, kissing you on your temple.

“Y/N?” A voice spoke softly.

You automatically woke up. It was Jungkook.

You clear your throat and said his name, “Jungkook?”

“I know it’s late, but can I video call you?” His voice was so tired sounding. You pouted at that fact.

“Sure.” You replied. The phone call ended and the video call ringtone started to ring.

You slowly sit up and turn on your lamp, tapping answer on your phone.

There was Jungkook. Laying down on his stomach, wearing his yellow pajamas and bare-faced.

You smiled and wave a small hello.

He smiled and waved back. After that, silence. The both of you didn’t say anything, but just enjoyed each other’s company.

You started to get embarrassed... Hiding your face with your hands.

“I’ll be home soon.” He whispered.

You removed your hands from your face.

“Seriously?” Your eyes lit up as you questioned him.

He only shows a small smirk in response.

“Tell me about your day.” You asked, sliding down to lay down. He lets out a quiet chuckle before going through his day. You place your phone in between some pillows so, you didn’t have to hold it anymore.

Laying down was not a good idea. You could feel your eyes giving up on you. You blinked furiously just to stay awake, but sleep was eluding you.

The last thing you heard from him was, “I love you Y/N.”

You were sitting on the couch of your shared apartment with your arms crossed and your frustration growing by the minute. Your head turned as you heard the fumbling of keys outside your apartment door.

You watch as the door open slowly. You continue to watch as Mark places his keys into your key bowl and swiftly taking off his shoes. He completely ignores you as he enters the bedroom. At this point, you’re fuming. You stand up and follow him into the bedroom. 

You usually just shrugged it off and gave him the silent treatment before he would apologize or vise versa. There was something that just... Clicked and you started to argue with him. It wasn’t healthy to start bring up things from the past, but one thing led to another and it escalated real fast.

This was the last straw. All the missed calls, missed dates, the warmth from him was gone. 

“I’m done. I’m done with you. I’m leaving!” You screamed with tears falling from your eyes.

“Fine, go then.” He coldly snapped back. 

You took a deep breath to compose yourself before slamming the door. You angrily made your way to the elevator and climbed on. You were already having second thoughts. You wanted to run back into the apartment and apologize, giving him hugs and kisses. You were about to... Until that feeling clicked again. You let the elevator close and that was the last time you saw Mark.

It was weeks since your fight. Mark kept calling, texting you and even visiting your work place. Every time, you barely escaped him. He was persistent. Where was that persistence when you were together? It wasn’t until you were closing up your work building that you saw Mark again. You tried to hurry up to your car, but he swiftly blocked your driver’s door.

“Y/N. Let’s talk please.” He begged, his voice almost as a whisper

“We don’t need to. You made it very clear that you don’t want to be with me anymore.” You replied, trying to grab onto your car handle. 

“That’s not what I said!” He exclaimed.

“I heard you loud and clear Mark, you ignored me for weeks... No text, no phone calls, not even saying hi to me when you just came back from your tour. Nothing. I don’t want to go through that again.” You spat out. You were angry, tired and depressed. 

You loved Mark. You didn’t know what to do with everything. Your hands instinctively reached out for his hands, but you quickly pulled back. Mark noticed and tried to reach out for you... You swatted his hands.

“... I just need some time away from you.” You whispered before pushing him slightly away from your door. You climbed in and turned on the ignition. You opened your window and lastly said your goodbyes.

“Get home safe, okay?” You said, before driving off.

It’s not the first time you cut class with Taeyong. You knew he was bad news… Heartbreaker is what they called him, but there was something about him that made you fall for him. With his sharp jawline, cat-like eyes, beautiful skin and a fit, built body that didn’t match his doll-like face. The leader of the defending dancing champions of the division, he was the number one boy all the girls loved. You don’t even remember how you two started to hang out… You two were always in the same class, but never interacted since he was always away. You two never talked until recently, when you handed him a water bottle after one of his dance competitions.

“Taeyong, here. Great job out there.” You softly said, as you stuck out your hand holding a water bottle.

“Thanks.” He replied, taking the bottle and gulping it down like it was nothing.

You turned around to leave, but he quickly grabs onto your wrist. He pulls you back to face him and you are now inches away from his face.

“What the heck!” You curse out, pushing him away from you. You dust off your clothes as he flashes you a smirk.

“I need you…” He whispered.

You squinted your eyes before replying back “Wait… What?”

He let out a chuckle before shaking his head. “I’ll see you around Y/N… ” He yells out before walking away.

You ignored him and continued to hand out water bottles to the other dance members. For some reason though, you kept looking at the hand he grabbed. Your heart jumped and it scared you. You couldn’t have feelings for Lee Taeyong, but you finally understood why all the girls loved him.

Every time Taeyong wanted to hang out with you, he would sneak you out of anywhere… Your house, school, work, hanging out with friends. The more time you spent with him, the more you saw other parts of him you’ve never seen at school before. Thump. There it is again. Your heart jumped again. You shook it out of you. You don’t have feelings for him. Ignore it.

He took hold of your hand and began to run. You didn’t know where you going, but you knew it was going to be interesting. The two of you ran and ran until you guys found an abandon building. You both made your way up the stairs and onto its’ rooftop. You took a deep breath and made your way close to the edge of the roof. You looked down, nothing but dirt. You then looked up, the sky was now a mixture of reds, oranges and yellows. You took a step onto the edge and spread your arms out. You could feel the breeze tickle your exposed skin. You smiled. You’ve never been this happy in awhile. A pair of arms wrapped around your waist that whisked you off the edge. Taeyong slowly puts your feet back on the ground, still having his arms around you. He begins to sway side to side. You could feel his body flow so fluidly. You try to loosen his grip on your hips as you turned to face him. You wrapped your arms around his neck. Still moving to an invisible beat, he pulls you as close as he can. He stares into your eyes and stops moving. It becomes silent between the two of you. Taeyong takes a deep breath before speaking.

“I finally realized, it’s you... Baby, I don’t want nobody but you.” He whispered before pulling you roughly into a kiss.