I’m just asking just so when u do go in the “request box” although this isn’t a request I just have a questing, why’d you stop making Megumi fics? I miss them so much I swear I’ve been a fan of your fics for 2 years now and I really wanted to know what happened. . Are you ok?
Hey! Thank you so much for checking. I appreciate you leaving an ask. I’m doing fine! So no need to worry. There’s been multiple reasons why I’ve been pretty inactive.
Originally, I took a hiatus because between the number of requests I had, the more social media aspects of Tumblr, and a bit of stalker-ish/harassing situation on here for older writers, Tumblr started to be overwhelming, and I wanted to reduce my online presence a bit.
Most of the time, I did want to write. However, I’d get anxious about taking too long with requests. That is entirely my own fault for taking more than I could handle at the time. It was a self-feeding cycle that made writing feel like a chore rather than fun, which once again is my own hangup rather than any followers and requesters actively pressuring me. When that happens, I take a hiatus for a few weeks or months and usually something in the fandom inspires me to come back and write a lot.
However, this was also around the time the final arc in JJK was happening, and it was just so disappointing, imo. My interest in JJK dropped during that time. I haven’t even finished the 3rd season even though I had been excited for it when it came out in the manga since it is a heavily Megumi-centric season. Then, a lot of available fanfic in most fandoms is very smut heavy (and not particularly the vanilla smut that I do like), and I ended up losing interest in reading fanfic on top of that.
So, after a long time on hiatus, I hyperfixated on Lies of P again when the DLC came out, which brought me back into writing sometime last year. It’s the only thing I’ve really been writing, mostly on ao3, because it was fun without the pressure. I haven’t been cross-posting because most of my followers on here are either for JJK or people who stayed once I stopped writing for My Hero, and of course, I still feel bad for the requests I never finished. I mean my blog has always been a hodgepodge of whatever I’m into at the moment, but I didn’t want to spam dashboards or have people felt like I ignored them completely, ya’know! lol
But I do still adore Megumi as a character and the people I’ve met and have followed my stories on Tumblr, but my ideas for stories with him just aren’t coming to me as much. There’s maybe one more big one-shot I had been wanting to finish since I wrote so much of it (also a request ironically). But I been a bit shy about posting a lot again, like is it okay to come back into the party? — social anxiety mixed with overthinking is a bitch. But I do actively monitor my account due to a situation where a spambot hijacked my account a few years back. So, if anyone sends anything, I will respond!
I’ll probably still reblog stuff with Megumi. I’ll have to watch season 3 and see if it brings back any ideas. I’ll be honest in that I can’t really say it will. So, I'd understand if that's a disappointing answer. But I'll always be in the main reader tag for him if it does!
But that’s pretty much it. I do appreciate you checking up on me, and I hope you are doing well as well! <3 I know that was probably longer than you meant, but I wanted to be very transparent about it. Thank you so much for being a fan for so long!
Tldr; writing and running a Tumblr got really overwhelming, and during that time, I just lost inspiration for the show and fanfic as a whole. Megumi is still my favorite though, the same way Shouto from MHA is still my favorite after all this time. If I starting posting on Tumblr again (which I'll probably end up cross-posting eventually), I probably won't take requests again because it feeds into that hiatus cycle too much for me, which I feel is detrimental to myself and people who follow or request.
