Adam Sackler X Male!Reader: Desires
Request:Â Hey there, I was the Sackler x Male Reader request. I didn't know you don't write smut, sorry about that! I'll just amend my original request to a Sackler x Male Reader so it doesn't include smut. For plot: MR becomes friends with Adam and slowly falls in love with him, and is worried the relationship will be ruined so keeps separate from Adam, eventually when Adam finally has a conversation with MR, MR reveals his feelings. Adam reveals his for the MR as well. Like a fluffy angst type of fic.
A/N: Donât worry about it! I never specified before that I donât write smut. But I hope you enjoy this one! <3
You had met Adam at the party only a few years ago through a mutual friend, instantly hitting it off with him and slowly coming to see him as a best friend. He was one of the closest people to you, there was no denying it. There was only one thing that could very well cause all of that to come crumbling down;
Maybe in the movies, it would be a realistic possibility for him to return the feelings, but how could he with all the girls he had been involved with? You would not exactly call him a player, but he did have a lot of short term flings with women.Â
He would stick to one girl for about a month until something went array and they left him until another girl came around a few months later. It was almost as if he was hoping for a long term relationship but could never achieve such a thing.Â
Though, when Hannah came around, it was clear that he had a far better connection with her that he had to any of the others. Yet, he did not seem to want to admit the slow decline of that bond he shared with her.Â
âPlease Adam, you have to realize what this is doing to you,â you whispered, your (E/C) orbs locked on his as he ran a hand through his hair. âI donât think sheâs good for you. Hell, sheâs like a parasite eating away.â
Letting out a scoff, he shook his head in denial to your claims. âYou have no idea what Hannah and I have. I donât give a damn about some of the mistakes sheâs made because Iâd just be the world's biggest hypocrite. Does it look like I want that? Because I fucking donât!â
âShe is so narcissistic, self-absorbed, and needy that Iâm surprised you havenât even been able to realize it. Sheâs not good for you,â it was not hard to believe that part of the reason she wanted to be with him was to have a sense of self-importance so that someone would pay attention to her and make her feel better when she was feeling unfulfilled with her life.Â
âSometimes people just need to lean on others to function. At least she can do that!â
âIn no way is it healthy how she does it! It always has to be about her Adam! Thereâs a difference in needing someone there for you and taking advantage of them. You donât deserve that, damn it!â
âSure, sometimes she does make things seem to be worse than they actually are, but everyone does that from time to time.â
âAre you kidding me? Itâs all the time! At least I wouldnât be driven on using you for validation and fucking sex, Adam. Thatâs all it seems like she wants,â you muttered out, heart pounding in the middle of your chest. You tightened your fist, squeezing your index finger with your thumb. âare you sure that she even loves you?â
As he was about to speak, he bit down on his lower lip to stop himself. Even with all of his hope of having a true, meaningful relationship for once, part of him knew that he couldnât turn his back on you because of this. No, there was little specks of doubt within him revolving around such a question.Â
âSometimes⊠I donât even fucking know what to think.â
âYou deserve so much better Adam, you donât even knowâŠâ you sighed. âI just wish that I were able to give you that, but I know that I canât,â why would he ever love you like you did him? All that you wanted was to prove to him that he could have something real and that he would not be left as dust in the wind by every girl that passed through his life.
âGive me that?...â he raised an eyebrow. âyouâre my best friend, youâve never screwed me over (Y/N). At this point, Â I think that youâre the only real authentic person in my life. But God, I donât see why youâve stuck around for all this time with how fucked up I am.â
âItâs because youâve never screwed me over, either,â from time to time, you would have someone warn you about him and implore you to run for your dear life, but in no way did you ever regret staying around. Adam wasnât as bad as they made him out to seem like, as you had gotten to really know him. âI donât care how much you think youâre fucked up, Iâm never leaving you.â
âWhy do you even stay? Tell me that?â
âI fucking love you Adam Sackler,â you let out before you were able to contemplate what you wanted to say to him. With the look of surprise etched into his facial expression, your heart sunk in the middle of your chest. âI shouldnât have said that. Iâm sorry⊠I⊠shouldn't just leaveâŠâ you breathed, hurrying to the front door to get your jacket.Â
As you slipped your arm into the first sleeve, you felt him grab you by your free arm. âDonât. You donât have to leave,â Turning you, he pulled you in to let his lips connect with yours. Fuck, they were just as soft of you thought they were, so warm as they danced into the kiss. After a few moments, your lips parted. âPlease stay.â
âI⊠I was so afraid to say anything because I assumed that you were straight⊠I didnât want to ruin the friendship that we already had.â
âThat sounds so fucking cliche, like right out of a movie,â he commented, his chestnut brown eyes locked on yours. A silence fell between the two of you as you bit down on your lower lip before he continued âand you really shouldnât assume anything. Hell, even I sometimes question my own sexuality. Vagina? Dick? Who cares?â he smirked.Â
Just in the last few years, Adam had begun to question if he only desired women, and how his body would respond to having sex with men. There were only a select few times he let himself hook up with another man, and he, in fact, was not turned off. Although it was a completely different experience than with women, who cared?
âIf only I knew⊠then maybe I would have said something earlierâŠâ
âDonât even worry about it,â he whispered softly. ânow tell me, why do you love me? I want to know.â
âI⊠love how stubborn you can be and how horny you get. I love how soft your hair is and how expressive your eyes are,â his eyes were such a memorizing hue of brown, probably the most expressive part of his face. âdonât get me started with your acting. Itâs so fucking hot to watch you.â
âYes. It fucking is.â
âMaybe I could show you a little something Iâve been wanting to act out for so long~â he mused, leaning back in to capture your lips against his once more. You leaned your head back into the door as he slipped the jacket off of your arm, letting it fall onto the floor. âand Iâll show you what youâve been missing.â
âPlease⊠fuck meâŠâ you were practically begging in a small breath, so needy. His hands trailed down to your side, leaning further into the kiss. Adam bit down on your lower lip in tease, seeing what got your attention.Â
âSay that again,â Bringing your hand up to cup his cheeks, you let the pads of your thumbs caress his soft skin, taking in every bump of each mole on his face you could feel. âI couldnât hear you.â
âI want you so much,â you spoke louder against his plush lips. Â
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