#actual2bipost

Hey, hi!! I go by Tobi! Orin works too, but mostly Tobi

I also go by 1bi, 2bi, n 3bi. They're just tobi variations, though

Im adressed by He/They pronouns, but dont mind any other pronouns

(neopronouns included. Those are cool)

So im gay, people dont like that around here. Pair that with a need to be apologetically yourself as a way to show trust, coming out felt like a need to my close friend. Its like me saying "i trust you and i will let your biggest mistake be painted in my name so you are free of consequence". Now pair that with not knowing if im close enough to them or not. Yay.!

So, i have 3 main friends

S, i came out to them first. Shes one im closest to, we know eachothers secrets and trauma typa friend. shes somehow the most religious, but like the good kind. Queen of toleration in my books. I mention it once, we rarely talk about it. Good start, i feel safe!! Confidence, yay! (Wrong)

N, i havent came out to them at all. She thinks we're too fare apart. She'd rather pick another group of friends over me, us being in the same circle was a coincidence. Its just the 4 of us, through, so i developed a whole thing about "quads who r besties" in my head

Now, E. I came out to her recently (last night or just now, depending on when i read this. Wont be proofreading). So i told her. As usual, i was a fucking mess the whole day. This is a piece of information that can ruin my life, but i will feel guilt eating me alive if i keep hiding it

I told her, asked how she felt and was like "idc lols" which is in character. Bad thing: i told her at 8 when we were playing, and started asking at 10 when we stopped. This means im not me (its 11, im still not me and im scared now). She told me to repent and i was like "i tried, didnt work lol" and ACCIDENTLY DROPPED INFORMATION. She asked about it, my high brain answers and i start OPENING UP.