#acleanstart

The Passive-Aggressive, Independent, Ambitious Girl from South Texas. . Ready to get out on her own.  Ready to learn about herself, The world, and share her experiences with all those who matter :) It’s tough, but not improbable. A lot has happened to me in these past 26.8 years. and I am ready to go through the rest. I am using this forum as a means to share my thoughts and adventures. Vocalize those inhibited emotions (I much rather do it sober than drunk). And improve my writing skills. Because, dear God, knows I need it. 

Why now? Well, I have 5 days left of working at a job with the best benefits I could have ever hoped for. Not the best pay (I’ve had better). I am tired of falling into similar mind numbing jobs, where there is no human interaction, and limited room for growth. I truly believe this is a sign from God letting me know that I’ve been doing it wrong. And that I need to do it different. And yes, it is good that I am trying out different fields, but not to lie to one-self because their role sounds ideally amazing. It’s very hard. And I cannot explain nor relate to many of my current know humans about these emotions. It affects me a lot. Work has always been a huge part of my identity-something that I am passionate about. And lately work has become a thing I am not proud of. I believe it’s giving me premature wrinkles!! :O ! eew! Anyways, it’s giving me a lot of anxiety and tension because simply it is not me. And it’s also not me to not have a job. But my debate became what kills you more: not giving 100% at work or not having a paycheck. Luckily for me, money has never been an issue. Except when I am the only stable paycheck in the family. Yes that is not cool. But without getting into all the dramatic details, I have now 5 days left to go to complete the knowledge transfer of my job to someone else. How exciting! I am free! But now what? How do I avoid repeating the same mistake? And this is where I start this journey. After massive attacks and fights with the closest people I have and love (my mom, sisters, and my lemur), I have decided to take this trip on my won without the help of anyone. Just me mind and will.  Y’all will be my audience (lucky for you?). And hopefully many things will come from this. Un desago para mi? A place for me to reflect and grow as a person? A place for me to work on my writing skills?