i never got a chance to say the words to you. i am sorry. you're a million miles away now and you'll never get to see these words or hear them, but i feel as though they must be spoken into the universe as acknowledgement of my deep regret before i will truly be able to release myself from our past.  i had my friend reach out to you, which was wrong of me ; you told me to stay away from you, not to bother trying to reach out. i should have respected your final wishes. but my words and sentiment spoken by him, still remain the same.  i am sorry. for all of the lies that accumulated between the two of us, the hurt that i caused you while we were together, and not being the person that you needed. i am sorry for saying that we were a mistake ; it was easy to spew those words, when i was hurt and licking wounds. which i guess i was doing, when i posted that drabble, that set you after me with guns blazing. our time spent together was beautiful, and will not be forgotten. never think that for a moment i will ever regret us. you taught me so many valuable lessons that i will carry with me on my next adventures. not all love stories are meant to have happy endings ; some end horribly wrong, others in the middle of a sentence. it is a rare few that do make it forever. ours i believe, had run its course. it was time for the both of us to leave, and move on.  i will always love you, just as i hope and suspect that a piece of you might always find a spot of affection for me. the ballads and books always got it right. all love is forever, it is just the time that we have together, that is not.