Genuineness
"As long as you’re being your authentic self, not being liked by certain people is literally a blessing. -Maryam Hasnaa"
This struck a chord to me because I was not being myself since my other grandmother (father's side) passed away last year 2009.
A part of me died that day as well. I lost the woman in me that my family loved. The jolly, shy and quiet kind of woman that they knew. And I am having a hard time bringing my old true genuine self back. There were things in the past that I did out of my emptiness since her passing which I am not proud of. Until years passed, I am picking my broken pieces back together. Piece by piece and one step at a time, it won't happen instantly.
Unfortunately there are some people who loves to point fingers at me and say mean and negative things towards for the main reason that they may or might have heard some of my past mistakes in which by the way doesn't define who I am. Those past mistakes that I did, it only serves as my lesson to do better or be the best version of me. And they don't know that I am still silently fighting my own battles.
But thankfully, I have a very close family unit that I can trust, that loves and accepts me for me. They always remind me that I am loved, that I should embrace all my flaws and that I should come out of my shell/comfort zone. Most of all they're always with me as I am still picking up myself.
They're one of my inspirations when I started making my blog. I think this is my way of getting back to my true authentic self, because all that matters at the end of the day is that, I am surrounded with people who has my best interest and whom I can count on.
I realize that we should not fear of not being liked by many because in my experience, I tried to find myself and my happiness in other people, rather than I should learn to love me for me, the way my family and everyone that surrounds me sees my worth.
