#accept death

I once had a sponsor tell me that my morbidness was one of my character defects and I've always been offended by that - there is nothing wrong with being morbid, especially if it leads to a greater appreciation of life. I think morbidness oftentimes makes other people uncomfortable if they themselves are not comfortable with death. I feel sorry for them - to not be comfortable with death is not to fully embrace our life on Earth.

When I accept death, it is easier to stand up for myself and to take care of myself – my days are numbered, so I need to make every day count. (I often think of how I need to read more because the worst thing I can think of is dying before reading certain books I haven’t read yet – I can’t die before I’ve read more Audre Lorde and all of Anne Sexton, for instance.).