#acake

this is a (vegan) double fudge brownie pie from @bromabakery’s collab with @cake… 👆🏼this can be a (vegan) double fudge brownie pie from @bromabakery's collab with @cakeinacrate and it is topped with cocoa nibs, salt, and rose hip sprinkles!

On my phone this week

Thank you February, you treated me well.

This is the letter I forgot to send. I guess I get a little nervous, knowing that a simple string of words could change an Almost into a Definite. And I’ve always been a little skeptical of forever, because I’m always stuck somewhere in between yesterday and tomorrow. So here’s to changing my way of thinking, and focusing on today… here’s to being brave, leaving nothing unsaid, and banishing all uncertainty once and for all.. and here’s to turning My Almost Lover into a Happily Ever After, or a lesson to learn from

I give 100% in all my friendships and relationships. I try my very hardest to never half ass anything. But I am starting to notice that people don't give me 100%, people half ass everything they do with me. Is it me? Am I the problem? Why do I go away for a week and people forget about me, You find a new girl people find new friends. What is so horrible about me that no one can give me 100%.

High school is horrible. I have to sit in a building with a bunch of stuck up horrible people, people who think it is ok to hurt others and who like to yell and scream and who don't have a care in the world. I hate high school, it is a horrible horrible place and I feel bad for any child who has to go there and have their innocence ripped away. I feel bad for my future children who have to attend this horrible place with all the horrible people. People who snicker and stare and who will make fun of them if they aren't "normal". High school is so horrible

Thoughts, holy crap do I ever have a lot of these.. Nothing is even actually wrong with us. I'm just scared I'm scared of what the future will bring, I'm scared that one day I wont have you, that one day you will stop trying. I'm pushing you away and I am not even trying to. I can feel you slowly slipping away from me. and there is nothing I can do about it. I cant fix the way I am, I cant fix the way you are.

I don't know who to believe, It seems like everyone now a day lies. Am I pretending it didn't happen so I don't have to ruin all the happy thoughts in my head about you, am I lying to myself so I don't have to deal with the after math of your games. Maybe I am. Maybe I don't want to be hurt, I am so done with hurting so done with being upset and sulking through life. Its not fair. Its not fair that I love him so much. But all he can think about is money and his games.  I just want to be loved and loved in return. I don't want to worry about where you are and who you are with. I want to trust you, But sadly I have been burned to many times and now I have 0 trust.