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Hi!

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Take a deep breath, relax your shoulders, and let yourself feel whatever you may be feeling. 

You will be okay, everything will eventually work out one way or another. Pain is inevitable, but it does not last forever, suffering is only optional.

Don’t leave without seeing the clouds clear after that rainy day, alright?

MAR 13 / 21

i think it’s been a year or two since i took a break from Tumblr (and a lot of things) but i just felt like taking a quick look at this studyblr once again :) it might just probably be the end of my studyblr journey (although i kinda mia-ed for 2 years oops since i’ll be graduating in may!!! and i’m not going to university anytime soon, maybe in a year or two when i acquire the funds to. And even then i’m not sure if I do want to actually start back on this studyblr thing but I’ll think about it if i ever do manage to go to uni! If anyone’s interested in my 3 years of polytechnic life, academic-wise you can read on,,,,,,

i’ll be honest with you guys, before i started polytechnic (i believe it’s pre-university..?) i was that student that didn’t need to try too hard to get decent grades and i carried this attitude with me when i entered poly. i thought it’d always be the same but i was mad wrong,,, i scored a c-average for my entire first year. my grades were bad, and i was so emotionally & mentally exhausted from so many things. it sucked because my classmates and closest friends were like genuises or wtv & they worked really hard, and got amazing grades and i just felt like im always lagging behind.

and at point of time when i was running this studyblr thing i was under the impression that my content *had* to be pretty and appealing. i spent a lot of time prettying my notes and doing all that jazz but to be completely honest with you, that never worked out for me in the end because i spent so much time on the ”aesthetics” that i had barely any time left to actually study. i guess i was just pressured by everything that i’d seen in the studyblr community. it’s really amazing content, and im not saying that these people are wasting their time. it’s just that different people work/study differently. well my point is that, if you like your notes to be pretty, there is nothing wrong with that. but if it’s impeding you from actually studying, then something has to change. and that was one factor that i realised contributed to my (very dramatic) “downfall” HAHAHAH

but anyway i managed to get my shit together for my 2nd year and it’s still my greatest achievement yet tbh,,,, i believe i scored a majority of As and the rest were Bs. thats honestly good enough for me tbh. if it matters, my notes became from pretty & colourful -> a giant header and then all black ink w occasional diagrams.

then on to my third and final year, things kinda went downhill a little bit but i worked my ass off for my final year project (something like a thesis! i did 3 months of research with my professor & write a scientific report on + create a poster, which i presented to 2 examiners) and thank the heavens I got my A lmaooo i wouldve have straight up cried if i didnt do well on that,,,,

and to present times i’ll be graduating in may!!! who wouldve thought!!! i wanted my gpa to be just a terny weeny bit higher so i could at least increase my chances at veterinary but oh welllll i messed up but it’s not the end of world!!!!

Plantsy aesthetic kinda vibes <3