A Bellarke Secret Valentines for @diyozas . A little angstier than I originally planned but I think it goes with the lyrics! I hope you like itĀ ā”
Do whatever you need to do (to make yourself whole again)
Bellamy has been in love with Clarke for a while. He canāt say exactly when he realised because her friendship has always been such a huge part of his life. The natural transgression is for him to fall in love with her. Or at least, thatās how he feels.
Theyād gone to school together since they were seven and nine. Clarke had pushed him over one day when she thought he was the one being mean to Jasper and Monty. But it wasnāt him and when she found out, sheād actually come and apologised, which had been a huge deal to nine-year-old Bellamy. He would have been too scared to apologise to someone two years older than him.
They hadnāt become friends immediately after that. It wasnāt until three years later when Bellamy had seen Dax and Mbege trying to snatch her sketchbook off her. Heād stepped in, using his middle school status to scare them off.
The friendship had grown as they grew. Until now at twenty-five and twenty-seven, theyāre as close as theyāve ever been. Sheās the one who was there for him when he lost his mother and had to raise his fourteen-year-old sister. Sheād been there every time he didnāt know how to handle something with her. Sheād been the one to convince him to put himself through college once Octavia finished high school. Sheād been there for him every time heās needed her.
Clarke is his best friend, full of life and happiness and fun. Sheās been his saving grace on so many occasions and he doesnāt even know what heād have done without her. They live together, they spend all their time together, he almost felt like they were inevitable.
Until Clarke started going down a path he canāt agree with. He loves her, so much, but seeing her self destruct the way she is terrifies him. And he doesnāt know how to help her. She wonāt let him.
Finish on AO3 here!
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