#about lazare

BILL SYKES - How much social power does your muse have?

CLAUDE FROLLO - Is your muse law-abiding?

1) yeah, i would say lazare acts about right for a 40-year-old, tired, established, sensitive but not exactly thin-skinned, but not out of touch yet.

2) i think lazare had a lot more social power in back when he lived in paris, wealthy with a nice apartment and with a lot of weird connections to the crime world there. but if he were to be influencing something, he'd be doing so behind the scenes. nowadays he's kinda just a guy, not super popular at mann co. and he likes it like that. being powerful kind of scares him now.

OH MAN. OHHHH MAN. lazare is SUCH a romantic, it's insane. when he's in love, he'll do anything for his crush. cooks food for them more often, little gifts here and there (often books on subjects said crush has mentioned being interested in) but, like many in love, he gets so fucking nervous when he's around them, might stumble over his words, or say something stupid when he's trying to be smooth.

as he gets more comfortable with his feelings (which are often so strong they can be overwhelming), he does eventually start directly flirting, as well as initiating touch. think hugs that are a little too long and tender to be a "just friends" thing.

THIS IS SO GOOD THANK YOU

The following would be translated from French:

I should've known this would happen the entire time. I don't know how I didn't catch it sooner-- the looks they gave each other when I took all three of us to Monte Carlo, every hilarious thing she would tell me Charles told her while I was out that day. How instead of her telling me she missed me and wished I spent more time at home instead of travelling, she told me "stay as long as you need to! Don't worry about me!" and I took it at face value. How she'd go on about how confident he was.

How I could tell I was starting to bore Charles. The way he would say "lighten up!" And assure me that there was a silver lining to everything without really listening to what I had to say. For a novelist, he wasn't the best at thinking up creative responses to hide his disinterest. And, like Ella, I'd hear about all of their escapades when I was too occupied to be present.

I can't shake the feeling that this was all my fault, however. My best friend took my lover from me and my lover took my best friend from me, but I made it easy. I was never around much. I could never compare to either of them. I was never tough and charming like her. Never famed and handsome like him. I should've tried harder.

I still kicked them out regardless. They'll be happier without me in the picture and I never want to see either of them again, but I'll miss them. I'll miss them.

🪥- did my muse practice good hygiene growing up?

🛎- does my muse like staying in hotels?

1) no, lazare has been an atheist for quite some time. it was pretty important to his family (who were protestant christian) growing up, but as soon as he moved out, he already started praying less, first out of forgetfulness and then out of losing hope before one day he realized that he lost all belief in that god. he's at peace with not having a god to follow, but he doesn't view religion as a bad thing. it's a source of so much human culture, after all, it's just not for him.

2) yes! he was not nasty. if he were, his mom would've gotten on him about it, but she rarely had to tell him to wash up. he'd probably forget to get behind his ears sometimes, though, when he was little.