#abdlstuck

I always had this lingering feeling of guilt and shame over my own self-insert, and the way I handled John in general through the life of this blog. Granted, a lot of his characterization came much later into the series, long after I’d established stuff based on what I’d read of the first... idk, 4 acts? Also, I was 19 and lacked literary comprehension apparently LMFAO.

I digress. I was young, and experimenting a lot with ABDL stuff as someone who was pretty new to it myself, and John ended up becoming a vehicle for a lot of that. Things snowballed, and I ended up with a lot of noncon-adjacent elements that made even me uncomfortable. Combined with a self-insert that I purposely portrayed as aggressive and a bit unhinged to put up a wall of sorts and ensure that nobody fucked with me, it was just... all over the place.