I have a lot of feelings to express but this one will b it for now.
tbh I feel like I love my dad enough to let him go.
fully breathe and get him out of my system.
I am always goin thru the difficulties of our relationship and all though I love him and distanced myself from him I just let it go.
hes a grown man but treats me like this adult that doesnt deserve love from their own dad.
I have always received loved from my step father so I know what love is from a guy. its different since its my step father.
as for my dad, I have gone to learn the lessons from what it meant to have a father like him in my life.
from abandonment, rejection, judged, shame issues etc. from him ive reckon that a lot of this isn't on me.
I do not have to bare any guilt for not know him and my other side of the family.
I do not have to bare any ‘shame’ for a being a ‘black sheep’ on that side either.
I am beautiful and courageous, inside and out.
his jealousy towards me and my mother is enough for me to walk out.
ive lived a fabulous life without him, and I will continue do that moving forward.















