#abandonent

tbh I feel like I love my dad enough to let him go.

fully breathe and get him out of my system.

I am always goin thru the difficulties of our relationship and all though I love him and distanced myself from him I just let it go.

hes a grown man but treats me like this adult that doesnt deserve love from their own dad.

I have always received loved from my step father so I know what love is from a guy. its different since its my step father.

as for my dad, I have gone to learn the lessons from what it meant to have a father like him in my life.

from abandonment, rejection, judged, shame issues etc. from him ive reckon that a lot of this isn't on me.

I do not have to bare any guilt for not know him and my other side of the family.

I do not have to bare any ‘shame’ for a being a ‘black sheep’ on that side either.

I am beautiful and courageous, inside and out.

his jealousy towards me and my mother is enough for me to walk out.

Some fanart of Spinel and Pink, when Pink is about to leave for her colony. ;-; Spinel definitely deserved better, and was not designed to process negative emotions. 

Does grief cloud your judgement? You betcha.

Two years ago, my life was settled, peaceful and secure. One critical mistake, a terrible car crash, and everything changed. When someone you love dies, you don’t really understand the trauma that grief causes. That is until you snap out of it and come to the realization that every major decision you make is based purely on emotion and not sound judgment. It’s terrifying. Is it too late to go…