#aass

Whatever the choices you make, I hope it makes you happy.

me reading my own fic and remembering that i had arthur call merlin “darling” as he was bleeding out because it’s what ygraine called arthur in the letter she wrote to him as she was dying: oh jesus

I haven't moved on, I'm just letting you live your life. I might not reach out as much but if you ever do, just know that I'll reply instantly. I may not say good morning anymore, but you're always the last thought I have before I drift off to sleep. I'm trying to focus on myself, but the truth is, I miss you deeply, I’d love to talk to you, but I know where I stand. You're always in my heart, and it always have a place for you.

If you ever see me loving someone new, remember I begged the universe to let it be you, I lost sleep trying to fix what was already gone. I’ve paid for it all in tears, in silence, and lessons. I’m sorry if I made you bleed, I was bleeding too.

Happy New Year! I know you've moved on already but I wanted to wish you a happy new years without me, without us. Don’t worry, I’m not here to text you "New Year, New Us", but I'll always be supporting you no matter where you are in life, and will never forget about what we had. I hope you achieve your goals just like you used to tell me. Take care!

I think I'll never understand how two people who once shared something so genuine, could end up as nothing but strangers. How do we go from knowing each other so deeply, to acting like we were nothing at all? It still doesn't make sense to me, and maybe it never will. But if there's one thing I want you to know, it's that I never regretted a single thing. Not the time, not the memories, not even the pain that came after. Because with you, I was genuinely happy. The happiest I've ever been. And maybe you'll never realize it, but you made me feel alive in a way I didn't even know I was capable of feeling. I just hope, in your own way, you felt it too. Sometimes I imagine seeing you again. Not in some dramatic way, not with big words or tears, just maybe in a cafe, the kind of place where we used to spend time, where the world feels softer, where the noise isn't too loud, where it could almost feel like before. Maybe that's just me holding on too tightly. But still, if life is kind enough, I hope our paths will cross again one day, until then, please take care.

After you, I'll never fall in love again because I know if I do, I would end up trying to find you in everyone I like.