#aaro's random posts

"I'm so bored. I wish it was a full moon."

I'm bored. I wish my friend could go through his agonizing transformation so we can all go run around in the woods together and babysit him as his mind is in this feral uncontrollable state. I can go run around the woods whether or not he's transformed, same with Peter and James, but no I specifically wish it was a full moon right now so I can get my entertainment.

There are a million things that one can point out about Sirius Black to state he's a bad person that did bad things, but I feel like this one is one of the more interesting ones. Because he's not bullying people who become death eaters and have debatable morals. He's not being cruel due to being oblivious, because of a rich pureblood upbringing. He's just wishing the time would move faster so he can have his fun, when he knows how much his "best friend" despises those transformations.

So I'm embracing it because its funny.

At this time, I am allowing all of you to ask the somewhat adult in the room whatever questions you want about growing up, and I'll answer them to the best of my ability. (Because this is very entertaining I've learned)

Edit: However don't ask how babies are made. I get that one so much and it's so basic.

Anyway, have fun, ask away.

So apparently most people have, like, a few special holes for people in their lives to fill. Some of those are friendship holes, relationship holes, teacher holes, parental figure holes etc. And when someone ditches them as a friend, it hurts, but they eventually fill that hole with someone new. And additionally, the space they have in the holes is sometimes limited, and they can't make new holes, so they sometimes have to entirely kick somebody else out of that hole of friendship if they want/need to put someone new in.

And those people, think everyone else works the same way, and so they feel bad when they see they're significant in someone's life, because they're filling up a hole in a person's life, that someone better than them can fill.

So I don't work like that, which is why this fascinated me.

To me, relationships and friendships are these little labels that get put on the holes that are people. When I meet someone, a new hole is made for that someone in my brain. Every person has an individual hole. Only that someone can fill that hole for me. That hole is not designed or meant for or could fit anyone else. And throughout time of knowing someone, that hole gets bigger as they get more important to me. If they become important enough, they get a label to that hole.

When someone removes themselves from my life, that hole remains empty permanently. It does not ever get filled by somebody else. What does happen though, is as the memories fade, and as I process that they are gone from my life, that now empty hole becomes smaller and smaller. And sometimes, especially if they didn't mean that much to me like they were some classmate I spoke to 5 times, the hole fades and goes away.

So while some people think they should leave me to empty up space in my mind for other people who are "more worthy of my attention," that doesn't work for me. Because you have a spot in my brain, and only you can fill that spot; that is your special spot. No other people get to fill that spot. Ever. So when you leave, it just hurts, because I now have an empty hole in my brain, rather a filled one. And filled ones feel better.

Why am I posting this? Because I think my mutuals who have insecurity should know this. Because I think a lot of them have their brains designed in a way, where they can only fit so many people into one hole of friendship in their brain, so they feel bad for taking up space in my hole in my brain, which they believe is like theirs. But my brain is not like that.

Taking a nap on the snow. Very comfy.

A community for all the eldest siblings who want to vent or just share stories of random bullshit their siblings or parents have done. I think it will be fun and therapeutic.

Tagging all my moots, because I don't know if you're older or younger siblings, but if you're a younger sibling or an only child, I ask you to not join.

Like, they could have made Ben the son of any royal family. He could have been the son of Aurora and Phillip, shipped with Maleficant's daughter. Or Jay with Aladdin's and Jasmine's daughter.

Its so basic and boring to keep it within the same story, when you're exploring a complex idea like this, and the fact they didn't makes me so happy for some reason.

Like,

Mal x Ben - Sleeping Beauty and Beauty and the Beast

Carlos x Jane - 101 Dalmatians and Cinderella

Jay x Lonnie - Aladdin and Mulan

Uma x Harry - Little Mermaid and Peter Pan

Literally the only canon ship in the movies that are from the same story is Evie x Doug, as they're both from snow white, with Doug as the son of Dopey. But it's not Main protagonist's kid x main villain's kid, so it's still somewhat creative.