#aaexuality

@vikingcarrot I've let you down senpai... But honestly that's what I feel? Like a loss? But then how do you lose what wasn't there (but then again it WAS there....wasn't it?) But yes! You spend so long trying to be taken seriously yes that it's like...you don't wanna give people that inch because they'll take a mile. And it's like... god, you know there'll be that "oh I KNEW you'd grow out of it" or "I knew you'd be normal" as if the years prior and all the relevant experiences especially those that lead to going "guess I'm ace" somehow are just erased like THAT. And it's like no! No they don't just vanish especially when I can pretty firmly say if I'd not met this person ans things did not fall the way they fell I would be extremely celibate and extremely asexual and extremely uninterested in dating or pursuing others. So like...what do you call that if not it's closest label i.e. aaexual? But then at the same time it feels weird to call myself asexual when I'm happily with someone and willing to bang them because the world would look at us holding hands and definitely not see one party is asexual. And at the same time don't I get mad at the idea of society misreading me as a lesbian when I'm with my partner rather than a man yet I'm gonna base my sexual orientation based on what I would or would not look like? That makes no sense either! It's a mess it's all a mess I'm just gonna scream I'm here I'm queer get used to it in my toddler sized wine bottle.