#a;updates

Okay, guys. I’ve got lots to talk about but what I want you to take away from this, is that I don’t want to stop writing. So before I go into this long update about what’s been going on in my life and how in shambles I truly am, just know that I’m not giving up on life or writing.

I’m just going through a really hard time right now.

We are approaching a busy time at work but there’s so much more to it than that. A few weeks ago, my manager took a week’s vacation and so that left me to do her work as well as my own. Which normally that would be fine. But we had so many other things going on that week that I really wish she hadn’t took that week off but it’s in the past now.

Then, we had a situation with one of our new employees. She lost a cousin to a senseless murder a couple weeks ago and she’s definitely not been the same since. In fact, we’re pretty sure she has gotten COVID while in Florida since the whole murder happened there and that’s where the funeral was.

At this point in time, I don’t have COVID that I’m aware of.

Guess who DOESN’T have Covid?

THIS GIRL RIGHT HERE!!!

I had two different tests done and they both came back NEGATIVE!!

I’M NOT GONNA DIE!!

Buuuuutttttt......There’s a catch.

HIATUS???

I’ve always sucked at those so please disregard my frantic, knee-jerk reaction to claiming a hiatus. I just needed a good night’s sleep and a day at work to get over my jumbled up emotions.

But for the record, I really am an extremely sensitive person and when I say that I care deeply about others, I’m not just exaggerating. I mean it when I say that I care about everyone here.

I can’t take a hiatus because Tumblr is my home. And you all are my family.

How could I possibly stay away from this?

Easy. I can’t.

So I’ve got a crap ton of fic recs to reblog but I’m gonna try to space them out. XD

APPRECIATION POST

I want to take a moment to properly express my appreciation for everyone here and I’d like to start off with the beloved people who have helped me become the person I am today in the writing community.

@grxnadxs @btsracket @jjungkookislife @jkeuphoriadreamland @besitosparakookie @jungkookiebus @jungkooksloststar @fortunexkookie @hoseoksyn @bulletproofbirdy @katebacks @callistojjk @writemywaytoyourheart @gukgalore @guksthighs

All of you are mentioned because you’ve either helped me with my writing, inspired me to write, are constantly giving me exposure, or just plain wonderful and give me a little bit of your time and day.

Thanks to some of you, I’ve met wonderful and beautiful people who I get to call my Little Shoppers. Some of you have been with me since the beginning and some of you I’m just now connecting with. Your writing inspires me to better myself and some of you have even helped me unlock parts of myself that have confused me for years.

Because of you, I’ve grown as not only a writer, but a person too.

Thank you for being a part of my life and a part of my family. You are truly loved and appreciated.

MY LITTLE SHOPPERS

Every single one of you are more special to me than I'll ever be able to properly express.

Some of you have came to me in private and spoken to me. Your words mean so much. And I'm totally up for having more anons. I'm sure my Potato Anon and I wouldn't mind some fellow anons getting in on the action here in the Magic Shop~

And for those of my shoppers who prefer to be silent? I respect it. I'm okay with it. Why? Because you aren't totally silent.

I see you, my shoppers.

I see you liking my work and the things I post. I see the way you cutely reblog my work to your special fic rec side blogs. And honestly? To me personally? That's the same as saying out loud, "hey you guys gotta read this!" Or, as some of you have so sweetly confessed to me, it's so you can go back and read it again. Like it still blows my mind that you guys read my stuff more than once because I myself have done that with fics that I'm a huge fan of.

So even if some of you never utter a single word to me, or never send me a single message, it's okay. Because you're already sending me silent signals telling me how much you love my stuff.

Just know that my anonymous option is always open and that you are more than welcome to send me something. But again, I respect your wishes to remain silent. You pressing the like button and reblogging my stuff is more than I could ever hope for.

Thank you thank you thank you.

Okay, guys! I have a crap ton of stuff to do today but I’m ready! I got this!

I haven’t written anything in what feels like forever, but!! That doesn’t mean I’m giving it up. Just because I’m busy a lot lately, doesn’t mean I’m giving up something I love to do.

I’m going through a very positive transition at work right now. We have two new girls and our team of coworkers have never felt so complete and wholesome before. We’re a group of five girls and our personalities are different but we get along sooooo well!! It’s great!!

But the con to that pro, is that I’m trying to train these poor newbies WHILE trying to get my own work done.

So it leaves me coming home happy but drained all at the same time. My brain just can’t function any further. I’m exhausted in every way but I’m happy and that’s important.

The weekends are really my only free time to write and even then all I’ve done is crash and sleep through half of it.

Long story short, I’m not giving up writing. You will see me release stuff again. I just don’t know when it’ll be. XD

I got my test taken this morning (7.14.2020) at around 8:30am.

It was a simple throat test and was a lot less painful then other versions from what I’ve been told. So thank goodness for that because I’m in like NO condition to be in any more discomfort than I’m already in.

I will hopefully get my results within 24 hours.

So hopefully tomorrow morning around the same time.

If I don’t have this horrible virus, then I’ve got to have the common flu or something. Because I’ve never experienced anything like this before. But I’ve also never had the flu before either.

The exhaustion is ruthless. It’s my biggest obstacle right now. It takes what energy I have to just breathe as best I can. I can still taste and smell but who knows how long that will last and I’ve been told that not everyone loses their sense of taste and smell. Besides that, I’m just far too tired to eat. I don’t have nearly the appetite that I’m used to having and this girl loves to eat.

Even just sitting up to type this is exhausting. Every little thing I do is exhausting. My legs started to feel wobbly when I was trying to fix my dinner. So so tired. OTL

I’m so grateful to everyone who has reached out to me because this is some scary stuff for me. In the beginning, I was afraid to close my eyes and try to sleep. Just because of all the horror stories and deaths. But having all of your support is helping put my mind at ease. I need to stay positive and trust in God that I’m going to make it through whatever this is I have.

Guys I’m so excited for you to read Rush Hour!! I’ve never written anything like this and I’ve done so much research for it! I’m super proud of how this piece is turning out! I may even turn it into a two-part fic! Check out a little snippet that’s a personal favorite scene of mine~

That’s it! I’m caving! I’m doing it! I’m gonna do it!!

I’ve always wanted to do a Vampire!BTS series and with the sudden sprout of them showing up on my dash and in the tags I follow, I can’t hold back any longer!!

I have so many other series I need to work on but I can’t do this any longer! I want to finally work on my own Vampire!BTS series too!

And since I’m stuck at home sick and forbidden to go to work, I have plenty of time to work on it~

You guys will meet the Bangtan Clan soon and learn their place in this latest universe I’ve created for them and you readers. OuO