#a thinks

i think a big problem with the person u are being different from the person that u want to be is that when ppl love the person u are it's a rejection of who ur trying to b. the stronger the love, the lower the chance that the emotion would carry across if u were fundamentally different. someone choosing you over anyone else means ur even more trapped in an incorrect portrayal of urself. love isolates you because it's a reminder of who you'll never be

how does it feel to be able to make something so beautiful? you’ve got stars at your fingertips, kid. 

i am going to do big things even if it kills me

I'm reading a book, "The Righteous Mind", about understanding moral and political differences and there's this quote in it that's mentioned, "We are multiple from the start" n it's weirdly got me tearing up ?? it's by this guy called Shweder and it's about how we have the potential to connect with any opinions, any viewpoints, even if only a few of these potentials get realised in childhood. how there's no true universal morality or moral backstop, no true locking in place of morals in the sense that. what we believe can always change, that we can always expand our thinking, learn empathy for new groups. that we weren't built for just one way of thinking about things. we are multiple from the start. idk

u romanticise running away to somewhere where no one knows u but u never stop to think abt what's going to happen when u get there. there'll always b somewhere to run from and you'll never b content unless ur leaving. can't ever arrive. spend ur life waiting for little pockets where u feel alive and the times when u don't are killing you. spend ur life waiting for smthn better and it poisons u.

do you think happiness is worth self deception?