#_headcanon

Ilhoon is very insecure despite not showing it often. He doubts every decision he wants to make before he makes them and says he is never sure about anything although he has made some extremely difficult decisions. He overthinks all the time, wonders about the what if’s, questions everything he is because he doesn’t think he is enough - ever. He is also very critic of himself be it with his art or with the way he lives his life. Him questioning his talent is a constant thing, always doubting he can do good or that he has the talent that some say he has. When something doesn’t go according to plan, he throws it away and starts from scratch no matter what others tell him and the same for his personal life. He does mostly of what he knows it’s right, but is never truly happy about it because he feels like in the end he always loses. 

Clear skies, PLEASE! He doesn’t like rain because it mostly messes up his hair (and he hates carrying an umbrella around) and he only tolerates it when he’s home, under a blanket, stuffing his face and watching tv. But storms? Boy… just don’t. He hates storms, he hates thunders (mostly thunders) because they scare the hell out of him in that puppy-running-away-and-hiding-under-the-bed way. There is nothing that scares him as much as thunderstorms, so he makes sure to curl up with someone every time those happen and demand to be distracted from the end of the world happening outside.

Ignoring him or not displaying interest in what he’s saying or showing you or in anything he seems to be interested in sharing. He is fairly enthusiastic when speaking, mostly because he tends to want people to share his enthusiasm which usually works perfectly. However, if there is no interest or attention in what he’s saying, he becomes progressively uneasy, to the point where he needs to think of the words before saying them. He becomes self-conscious, silently admitting defeat and slowly accepting that maybe what he’s saying isn’t all that interesting after all. It usually progresses to the point where he quickly wraps up what he was saying and diverts the attention to the other person, letting them speak instead (or just remaining silent after).